Pale reflections Shadows that linger longer New understandings In an already muddled mind Madness comes easy to the man who holds the centre of the world in his palms Before you turn from me Without reason Remember what you were doing here in the first place Cry to release what you know you can not hold onto You lie so sweetly To your self you are only the fool at the edge Hold me For I am no stronger than the man you see in the mirror And only when you accept yourself Will I admit that you are the better part of me
So I want to write a book I want to place all the words My soul has bleed and splattered onto these walls Into something I can hold God dam emotional journey going on in my head Pulling up all this **** Is making me an emotional train wreckage
I don’t know this place anymore The faces aren’t here The souls don’t linger just a moment Conversations are void from the blank frameless canvas on my screen
JP caught the last train out I was told he waved a silent goodbye To the nobodies standing on the station
Eileen and Chris with their beautiful words Fell apart and drifted away from us all The winds of change taking them to the most remote places. Eileen is dancing with the pixies and making wishes on stars Chris not so
Gabrielle beautiful girl Head so strong and wiser than her years Has her head in a book or a family to raise or a degree in wisdom for all of her days
Paddy Now paddy can be found down by the stream Anyone who knew him Will know what I mean The fishes are high and the summer is long But from this place your spirit has gone
Bathsheda She ran (And I mean ran real fast) To the hills where she runs free Screaming obscenities At anyone who might pass A doff of the hat A piece of that cake A moment of connection Make no mistake A women of word Who won’t take your fooling But for that chocolate cake she would be drooling
Lily oh lily Oh lily my love I think you were sent from heaven above You warm my heart still But your not of this place And it’s never here I glimpse your face
Gonzo My friend With a smile that hides the reality of a man Your darkness I love Your sorrow I weep But away from here The burden was too steep
Richard Now what can I say You just got up Left the front door open with no poetic note to say good bye We yearned We missed We adapted Then we all left The glue had gone
Helen Let’s open a bottle and drown all our tears Well we could But your not even here
I never mean to let you pass by my barriers But somehow you do. I never mean to let you fill my void But you always do. I never mean to miss your presence But I always do. You make me see how empty I really am And most days that's something I manage to hid Even from myself
Dark forces beckon Pulling me down roughly Into a cassom of feverish memories He left because Because he would rather be alone than be with Someone who wants Needs just a fragment more than he is able to give God dam life ***** at times Tears only fall when I allow myself a moments worth of self pity All around me see that I'm doing fine Never mentioning his name Smile on face Always the one to deal with the brunt of everyone else's needs Come now who needs me next Come take another piece I'm sure there is plenty of me to go around I find myself so small and needy at times But put out your hand my friend I feel your pain It was my destiny to find you and make you whole Do you trust all that I say Then come sit in this corner a while We can rock together Mindlessness and misunderstanding Narrow minds and yesterday's tears It should be a great way of getting to know each other don't you agree ?
Does the time make us fools or simply were we always so to begin with . Sketches faded now remain a ghost that haunts only the artist and nobody else. The clock strikes midnight, but time stands still in this illusion of borrowed hours Will there be a moments peace within the turmoil which ever lingers upon this day The hours are toxic to a idle mind. Falling in a routine and a favorite vice the blade still glimmers even after all its use. We always find misery easily where others just themselves
Voices speak to me of freedom But freedom is not something I desire I beg and plead with you But hell what do you care I'm lost But don't treat me like a fool A fools freedom in your smile Is not freedom at all
As I walk now past empty gardens that once knew life of summers embrace .
Winters chill is a empty ended promise . Now simply scorched is the earth that does remain.
The clock upon the wall simply keeps time we only hold memories and nothing more
Life has been a listless game of joys and sorrows I've spent my joys too quickly and they nowadays spread themselves thin upon the stage which is my life Sorrowful me that lingers on the edge of reason May reason be the saving of my sanity and not its end
Well I did it my first co-write with one of my favourite poets and friends. Thank you John, friends always ~Rai
Beyond the broken mirror frame Alice sits and waits Once this was her portal From all her worldly restraints Now she sits here contemplating How to get back home She has has no ruby slippers Feeling isolated and alone How to put this life most different Back together again Can you glue fragmented glass Will it glisten Will it last Until Alice can step back through Back to the love and life She always knew It time It's time I'm going to be late Follow the white rabbit He knows another way
Is it still classed as mental health When your tummy warns You of impending doom You act accordingly Only later finding out that your fears were real People you wouldn’t want to meet were in places you were ment to go And boom was it anxiety Or was it spiritual connection Warning you of impending doom.
Nothing hurts more Than holding your child As they are falling apart It kind of tears you apart at the seams her cheeks are wet And the sadness is radiating in all directions But you've talked your talk Both staring at the ceiling From the base of the bed in a darkened room You both soul searched and cried forever Best friends forever in this cruel world You know you've been a good mum When she sits singing and smiling with a new hope twinkling in her eye
Funny how life takes you to places Where people write upon your soul * They show you themselves in colours so true Then stamp their feet like toddlers out of control
*In valleys so deep I found my heart He stood there arms wide open He had been waiting such a long time And yet never faltered in his understanding I so love him for that
Lover of the night and sleeper of the day Hawks fly better when chased by eagles I've heard Fear cripples the soul Fear encompasses all that we are Leaving us bare
*Beauty of all Thankfulness of all greatness is created at the feet of masters long past And yet as poets we glow We grow We understand and we carry our souls with pride
When I'm alone I feel like a whole Fragmented memories serve no one so Lovers are soon forgotten The calm takes over And I can forget how broken My heart really is Cradled in your arms I felt torn Snuggled in your bed I felt wretched Love lies Tares and crusifies Who am I to walk around this world like a broken fool Freedom Peace of mind Serenity Love of self Denial that there is any other way
Knowing that soon We will be one Within the breath Which we call life A connection tied A moment promised Summer will see our love The scent Upon your skin Reminds me Oh how I longed to be Once more held captive lookking into The mirror Looking into self You see The dust has gone The fire of damnation has subsided Into a nothigness So complete I trust in all that love is I move around you Encircling Moving forward within And to you Treasures are glittering In moments yet to be lived
Life is perfect when you are allowed to think outside the box To tell the honest truth I'm not sure I've ever dwelled within that box The walls can't cage me The barriers they give me a goal Something to reach past Why would you encapsulate your imagination When it can be freely flying Loop da loops in the shining blue sky
She hangs the memories of what could of been back on the crooked shelf Once a silence reigned where now the roaring of lions frequents her moments To have to hold to free to let go to live to die to just be one self in a chaotic stage play Hold her hand a while Trace the veins which feed her soul , mind and body She is not perfect But somehow close for all her faults You should of took it further She would of held you for a life time Fear is placed where humans dare not tread Your eyes swim with confusion She can smooth the waters if only you could slow down She has the music of mermaids and the power of the shaman You let that go at the dark hour when you stopped and forgot to breathe She held you there Then you turned and walked away Head held low as you fell in love with others who only brought you to your knees Years passing lovers come and go She holds a small corner Not in wanting but in yearning for Not in yearning but in a knowingness Once she loves she never forgets the taste upon her tongue Pass by Walk on Head low No more tears fall from these eyes Love is gone Now all there is a selfless understanding of belonging to one self Connections blocked
There is sweat on my brow Blood under my finger nails And nothing can quench my thirst Like the blood that runs in rivers through your body I can smell your heart beating Come closer* If you dare
Those old folks holding hands in the park The ones that have loved each other for eternity And are still going strong That's what I missed And now I realise the princess in me never really found her prince Just a load of old frogs The old folks they found each other They took the princess and prince and turned them Into a King and queen .
This night betrays me Slumber beckons and calls But nethertheless My eyes don’t fall to the tune of the night Soon dawns chorus will hail a new day And I will fall into a new tune Wearily awakening to a new day
No one comes here A Barron place Where bombs have been dropped Words spread on paper like the blood spread across our conscience Many battles have been faught and won here Many man has come and gone More gone than survived I miss them all Friends I thought were but candles flickering Too tender Too hurt and fragmented Just visiting to vent or create Or to connect with themselves through others I step carefully through the rumble There are too many ghosts Wandering lonely About these walls
Do not slay your dragons on my doorstep then make love to them just above the gaze of heavens gates. Do not surrender your fears and then shackle them to yourself as if your life depended upon it. I am no fool to any man. I laid down my heart You cut me with your sword and my shield will protect me from your hastening attentions. Maybe I am not broken enough to see through your gaze. But the silence that hangs on the breeze speaks truths. And it is only truths my ears will dwell upon. Sweet words mean nothing if in secret you cast them to the dirt below your feet . The darkness just merged my mind and heart together spitting violent words into a fierce furnace of powerful rage. Love those you love. Standing tall in your need for reflection for reflection has purpose. Speak kindly in secret as in company it is there that you will gain the greatest rewards.
I'm proud of the person I've become It's good to know your worth Even if at times My mind tries to tell me I'm worthless and life Does something stupid to reflect it back at me Through all the love,the hate and the bloodshed I really am pleased that I have become Who I am today
Lessons learnt the hard way, I'm a kind caring person but I am no fool . I like being me.
It feels quite numb An incomplete moment A recollection of a breath upon my skin Makes me smile As still the tears are rolling down my cheeks Hold on fast to the dream that flows from desires That stem from hearts Misted only by ivory towers Feeling numb Has become My new way of handling tomorrow The only way in which I've learnt to hold up my head And smile at the sun Which often times Threatens to scorched my very existence
A friendship carved in stone Strange markings only recognisable to those connected by fate Destiny spins its wheel Ever spinning Ever knowing We were always ment to walk this way. The day feels warmer with you by my side The wind is less harsh against my skin . But the sea The sea still beckons me Singing it’s song The sirens call And I wander the cliffs looking for a treasure to bring back and lay at your feet A token of my love Carved in stone Like my love for you born from the womb of understanding Held by life Released upon the sea To float freely on the tide that laps upon the shore.
Today my head is tierd My body is aching But my heart is happy And my soul at peace
If it will be the same This time tomorrow Depends on wether I can bounce Other people's arrogance And egos Away from my skin Words burn Feelings echo Long after A situation has past
I prayed that the heavens Angels would heal you I now look around And see they are already here They bare blue gowns They have the gentlest of touches They grace the ward with all the patience within Your hospital bed stifles you The tube intrude Your breathing wraspping Your life in the balance May angels guide you
Tread lightly upon the Earth you call your home Be gentle in heart and strong of mind And on days when that's hard I don't mind being your rock Your anchor A haven within your chaos Tracing your feelings Suger paper sweet Yet bitter like lemons upon your taste buds Hold on to moments Remember to breathe Remember there's people out here that care
I held the glass Lipstick stained Thoughts running wild fragmented moments and faces in mirrors We will never be the same now Years have passed us by Friends are no longer here To warm our nights When I wonder Did reality take over? We may never know So tomorrow when you look into the mirror Remember And look beyond your shadow We are still standing like ghosts Holding the part of you You couldnt hold onto ....
It’s long past midnight The wind howls around the feet of trees that stand tall, but bend awkwardly Into positions they were never fashioned to reach the rain starts slowly but increasingly patters like small footprints upon my window pane. Smoothing and unnerving all rolled into one strange moment of sleeplessness Insomnia beckons for company I gave in what can I say I’ll sleep through breakfast now so no harm done And anyhow I am my own master So do as I please And now I wandered here If your listening I’ll never know I don’t care for strange relationships across blank screens anymore I don’t slow my breathing down to accommodate yours I don’t talk for hours Delving deep yet dusted with a surface shallowness I could never recognise before Eyes open Heart closed That’s the way to survive I guess
I see you The one who runs from home Child in arms I see you As others rant about their own safety I see you As you carry your child through dark forests and hostile countries I see you As others give food and rejoice at your safety I see you Sitting in detention centres waiting your fate I see you Sleeping under the stars But it is not me that is important in your journey* You hold the fear, the pain and the total desperation You hold in arms your future You watch those stars above you as you fall into an exausted sleep I hope within you you can imagine a better place I hope you see safety returning I pray for your children that they will know peace *I see you
As twilight approaches A realisation That we will never speak again floats through A mere thought And its ok I guess As the clock strikes some ungodly hour I scream silently Them move on Blanketed In the safety of loves dream Little things which bound us have withered and died Oh how I love the breeze Even if I close it out I know that it will still be there if I choose to just Open another doorway
Chalk white on skin so translucent that scars are no longer hidden Painted emotions Old out warn brain washed excuses How hard are you on the inside Whilst out here the world crumbles before your eyes Hold tight to the smile from a distant memory For memories are golden Some we retrace time and time again Willing ourselves to relive , relearn Fate has played an ace You stand or fall But even death can not **** your soul and the spirit it holds Brother come sit with me Journey as if a child and remember who you are and where you belong Shake your self free from preconceived notions and tattered ideas Freedom comes when pain subsides and you stand naked Naked in all understanding Ready to remember I put my hand upon your heart and promise that I know for sure You can never let yourself down Learn that you are all and all is you
Some nights are so dark That I can not see myself I can not feel I know I’m loved But don’t know why the void inside my chest is expanding like a black hole Life gets ****** in and through but nothing stays There is no light No stars to hang above my bed In dream time I feel as though I’m falling Another man would give in, but I am not that man and the darkness laughs at my inability to see through this moment. This moment and the next This day drags and now I get no solace in sleep For my mind is reeling My synapses charging My thoughts are racing Yet I cry my tears then shrug it off again My darkness matters to no one No one sees me No one hears me I am and I feel so small A mere particle of dust An atom amongst atoms I must come to realise that this silence is of my own creating I must want this I must need this For the healing happens when we are stretched When we are torn I am opening my heart And that’s painful And lonely at times.
Crystals falling Hues forming As light reflects on broken windows Derelict houses Empty Lost for words Naked The fool may fall to his feet Face in dirt Or he may rise higher Knowing The air is freasher And there really is a crock of gold For the taking All he needs to do is look within Once he finds his truth Breathing will once more Be something that comes naturally
Angels sleeping Whilst mothers weep Growth in spirit In silent retreat Dust to dust Upon the breeze Connection lost I pray down on my knees Lost to my sight But not to my heart Torn from life Right from the start
I love too hard I feel too much And In The End I Fall Away Silently. Aching Heart, Frazzled Mind, Returning only when I have managed to find a balance My own sweet equilibrium*.....
This time last year making plans Funny how much can change so quickly I'm so sure I was madly in love with you and you with me But when you are unable to help pick up our broken pieces When you would rather turn your back and hide from what's going wrong Without gluing back together the important bits that make it love When I don't seem to miss you quite as much as I thought I would I'm not sure it was true love or just a dream lost on a whisper You held my heart twice Let go twice This bird is flying free never to return home
Threads woven Into the shimmering fabric of time When I close my weary eyes And meditate I am able to See across the years of the blind Years that come and go Hurts becoming nothing more than lessons learnt Returned soldiers from a ****** battle of wits Friends reunited but time has taken its toll The grass is greener when the rain falls And a spectrum covers the horizon Oh how blessed we are when we see what is Right in front of us Hunger Becomes irrelevent Take your fill There's a source of plenty But be mindful Only when we really believe we deserve Will we receive the bounty Which is our birth right Try to remember In remembering You will find your home
Tracing my fingertips Slowly across the keyboard Trying to awaken the dreams in words that I used to ache for Slowly realising that it all lies beneath the skin waiting to surface
Turning on the green light inside my head Maybe I still am able to light the horizon with feelings
That lay at the base of my soul It is comforting to know I never really left home after all.
Sore head Crumpled sheets The moments before the mind kicks in The morning after and she turns suddenly Reaching for her phone Drunken messages sent after midnight After downing two bottles of the best red Oh how cruel can we be to ourselves Tears fall There were no words in reply She was no more to him How someone could love so powerfully Then fall away silently Was something she neither understood nor accepted She is moving through her grief and turns holding onto memories Before they too crumble away Leaving her void of emotion until another foolish Wimb beckons her She inspects her own fury which is building up in her heart How dare he wring her out like some used up dish cloth She pulls her body up heavily There's nothing that coffee won't fix Or at least this is what she will tell her frazzled mind It's going to be a long hungover day The sun is shining outside She will curl up and wait for a reply Always waiting She holds back Acceptance and denial all in one breathe
When we feel safe so walk unprotected When the spears of unnecessary anger and raised voices hit you hard and grip you tight
A memory of a feeling you vowed to your soul that you would hold up your hands and protect its very essence you feel you failed and now you feel the anger, the tears and frustration which in reality no long belong here
A message from my soul ...
Mirror mirror on the wall deflect this anger from my door uncuff your psychic chains from me take back what my heart did feel in reality this is not mine but some others to chew up and grind I free myself from the binds of others I spit them out but not in anger
If I wanted to swing a little higher Would you take control Would you tell me it wasn't safe Or would you stand watching with that smile on your face The one that says This girl is crazy But I so do love her When the wind is playing tunes finely Through the strands of my hair Would you look my way and smile At your recollection of freedom Oh how I love you for letting me be Me I jump Knowing your catch me When my need matches yours I love you from my soul It's where we connect The pebble bleeds for comfort As the sky lays down my heart
I love, I am , I desire, I. I hope, I pray , I need,I Love. W. E. See I. I. V. I Am. L. O. Know I L. I Desire. Feel I I Will. Love I. I Have You Fear
Fear has no place in love ... Have you fear within your heart
Theres no messages left in me anymore I had a million and one things to say to you Happy Sad Indifferent How was your day Your year Your life But no reply Equals rejection So I stopped myself You don't want to know No message No reply No rejection Easy
Maybe tomorrow your remember who I am I remember when We made daisy chains in summer And watched the sun rise and fall Your smile broke me apart but Your touch put me back together again Wild dreams of spending a life much loved Something which I've never managed to find As I look around at others I desperately want someone to call my own Who will there be to build ice castles in the sky with me Who will run wildly in lusious green meadows Holding on so tight but feeling freedom in a whisper of love Some days I think maybe this kind of love has passed me by But you look around and most people have someone Or so it seems The lost souls wonder with a transparency so fine that they Go unnoticed Even I don't see Maybe if the wanderers could see through each other facades They would find a treasure That glistens in the heart as well as in the eyes that shine hope Maybe tomorrow I will walk with my eyes open and my heart free