we haven't been friends in a while. mostly because I kind of broke your heart, I think, and I apologised to you over and over in my head, and out loud, but it may not have been enough. anyway, your best friend has his girlfriend and I heard about what's happening in your family. you used to have someone to talk to -- I used to be that, for you, and what I did took that away and I wonder who you go to now but I know the answer is 'no one' -- there are things I'd like to tell you but I'm not sure you want to hear them, there are things I could do if you still wanted me around but after all these months of pretending we're okay I just can't find the words to say "I'm still here, just in case, if you need me."