Should've seen the signs
But it's you

So I guess I ignored them
So I guess I deserved it

When it came to you
Always overlooked the cracks in your surface
Always saw the good in the bad  

Who hurt you?
Who made you so jaded?
When did you become so jaded?

You put my heart through hell
But I can't get enough
With you
I never win
But I chase it
I crave it

People come and go
Then you come back to me  
I'll never let anyone close to me
I'll never let anyone have half of me

I've finally had an epiphany

Waiting for you to change
Waiting for your reciprocity
Is like waiting for forever  
Waiting for never

Whatever this was
Was never real
Despite the way my heart may feel

No longer could hold my tongue
My heart sick of being trampled and flung
To you I desperately clung

Said some things that we regret
But the damage is done
We can't forget

I realise
My feelings were lies

My feelings for you was nothing but an
Allusion
Delusion
Illusion
Couldn't contain my anger and confusion

Once again, my mind playing tricks on me
Cruelly
Twistedly
Wickedly

It's always me that's losing
My heart is always bruising

Every other person you are choosing
You always found my obsession with you amusing

No more
Time to close this door
No longer waiting for never