I called
The phone rang
And rang
And rang
No answer

I texted
Typed out everything I couldn’t say aloud
I waited
The screen stayed empty

I wanted to live, god
At least for someone to talk me down
But I guess the line was busy
Or maybe
I wasn’t loud enough to matter

So I did it
Not because I wanted to die
But because no one came when I begged to stay

And if I don’t wake up tomorrow
Tell them
The hotline didn’t pick up