I am good at being alone. The dishes get done when I feel like doing them. Silence hangs like a painting I chose myself. The hours bend gently around me, and I call it peace.
I laugh out loud at my own jokes, call it self-love, call it growth. The plants don’t mind if I forget to water them, and neither do I. This is thriving, I tell myself.
Then I spend three days with people I love. Not performing. Not planning. Just existing side by side- a meal shared without occasion, laughter that erupts without needing a reason.
I remember something older than language: that warmth isn’t just a temperature. That joy has a different flavour when someone else tastes it too. I remember that solitude was never meant to be a permanent home- only a resting place.
There is a part of me that longs for gardens we plant together, for walls we build with laughter baked in. For shoes at the door that aren’t all mine.
Maybe the soul remembers what modern life unlearned- that we were made to brush shoulders to pass bread to belong.
And maybe what I called thriving was just surviving with the lights on.