I finally get over you
Your name still follows me around everywhere I go like a cruel sick twisted ****** up joke - But it doesn't hurt anymore somehow
Your name doesn't hurt my heart
Somehow like we never met in the first place
I start to feel normal again
Whatever that is

Then...

Speak of the devil
You inevitably reappear
Like you can sense I'm finally over you
Finally moving on
Just like you wanted

And I'm back to square one again
And the cycle repeats again

The same familiar delicious longing and torture

Not quite together
Not quite friends
Not quite lovers

But can't stay away from each other

Painfully.. somewhere in between

It's sickening
I've become an addict for this pain

Because it's you and only you