Tendrils spiral - surrounding me again in cardiac arrest. Blip blip blip - down. Leave me alone. Let me- Iridescent buzz from a ceiling fan in the black void. Am I swallowed? Did the abyss swallow me up? I feel it in my bones- in my marrow. Never let me go. Zombie creatures, like the women on tv, circle - cross legged. Silence, numb and cold. What do you want? I see your eyes now, beautiful monsters. A mirrored image. A burdened season. Everything I used to know.