permanent sadness
refuses to go,
  To be whole,
To
Solidify.

Everyone around
me
Has their own goal
And is pursuing
Dispirit...is my hope an illusion?

have the people in
my life
Just been actors...?and the few good ones
Adjusters?
I am full of answers
So don't understand why
I even ask these questions.
Suppose I am just
happy when I write,
but just wish it would always
Bear a cost for me.

Poonanny Amen Christian God