**** me

like you know how
like how you did a few weeks ago
like i’m a meaningless ant

**** me

like how you do every time i dedicate words to you
like how you drown yourself in your own convictions
like how you’ve seen others do before

**** me

like you would if we were not friends
like i know you want to
like i know you have before

**** me

like i wish you would
like i wish you would jab the knife in my heart to stop the pain
like i wish you were actually honest in your beliefs
like i wish you touched me with bloodied hands instead of careful ones
like i wish you would get sick of everyone else and their bodies
like i wish you would just be like everyone else so this wouldn’t eat me up inside
like i wish you were proud of the things you discard
like i wish i still appeared on your mind like how you do on mine
like i wish you killed me instead of reviving me.