I have started saying "I don't know" when they ask on what page it's on Although I know, I have begun not answering question and letting silence take to the air but I know the response,Β Β mentors friends and life have so kindly given to me the letter with the answers, I don't want to pretend to be dull-witted--I do know it's all blood and scrapes and great heaps of love to know, not haughtiness --
being in an environments where you can't really shine and have to dull yourself = not good
it seeps into you so its a constant undoing of sorts