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May 19
i wanna touch you,
caress you
a long sad make out
filled with longing
and hurting
i wanna talk to you on the phone
for four hours
even though we've never talked before
you never put any effort into me
like you did with her

ive never been held
or loved
or kissed
or taken out on a date
or even touched
im afraid to ask.
im afraid to ask for what i want
im afraid to ask you to be a man for me
the kind of man id want you to be
the kind of man you were for her
when you started to cheat on me

for her, you'd buy a plane ticket
and send pictures
for anyone else
you'd go the extra mile
but for me, everything gets cut short.

is it because i'm "easy?"
this started off as soft love
now
i'm growing anger again
getting so angry
at all the times
you constantly try to use me
why
just ******* why
do i mean nothing to you?

then
you wanna turn around and ***** and cry?
because i ******* "hurt you?"

oh i see
i get it
i'm just a "friend" to you
that's why
yes
that must be the reason
you only want to have *** with me
and nothing else.

and pretend
like nothing ever happened
while you give
everything
to all those other girls.

i dont know who they are to be honest
its funny
i dont know who "all those other girls" are
but i know theyre not me
cause you dont give a **** about me
god
****
i slowly come into an anger

i just dont get it
you dont love me
you only want *** with me
but at the same time
i have the power to hurt you?

do you just want friends with benefits?
is that it?
am i your friend,
that somehow,
you want to use, abuse, and manipulate?
and still keep me in your life?
do the same ****
over and over again
it's just either
***
or the friendzone
and i dont want either of that ****.
god i ******* hate you
i dont understand this
i shouldve never reached out.
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