i wanna touch you, caress you a long sad make out filled with longing and hurting i wanna talk to you on the phone for four hours even though we've never talked before you never put any effort into me like you did with her
ive never been held or loved or kissed or taken out on a date or even touched im afraid to ask. im afraid to ask for what i want im afraid to ask you to be a man for me the kind of man id want you to be the kind of man you were for her when you started to cheat on me
for her, you'd buy a plane ticket and send pictures for anyone else you'd go the extra mile but for me, everything gets cut short.
is it because i'm "easy?" this started off as soft love now i'm growing anger again getting so angry at all the times you constantly try to use me why just ******* why do i mean nothing to you?
then you wanna turn around and ***** and cry? because i ******* "hurt you?"
oh i see i get it i'm just a "friend" to you that's why yes that must be the reason you only want to have *** with me and nothing else.
and pretend like nothing ever happened while you give everything to all those other girls.
i dont know who they are to be honest its funny i dont know who "all those other girls" are but i know theyre not me cause you dont give a **** about me god **** i slowly come into an anger
i just dont get it you dont love me you only want *** with me but at the same time i have the power to hurt you?
do you just want friends with benefits? is that it? am i your friend, that somehow, you want to use, abuse, and manipulate? and still keep me in your life? do the same **** over and over again it's just either *** or the friendzone and i dont want either of that ****. god i ******* hate you i dont understand this i shouldve never reached out.