i could chew through the paw that is caught in the steel jaws of a hunter’s trap
but the barbed wire fence i tried to slink through has already gored me
and if you’ll just give me a few more minutes, wait out on the porch with your bouquet of daisies, wilting in the summer heat, i can get the blood off these nice wooden floors
the scream that rips from my throat is choked off by the biting wire wrapped around my bloodied muzzle
i’ll crawl on my belly to your doorstep, knowing that you’ve left the porch light on just for me, spilling soft yellow onto the mangled wreck of my small body
and we can drive down to the coast this summer, for real this time, i’ll even take off work, and you can put your hand on my knee like you used to
i don’t quite know when i gave into that soft animal beating of my heart, but i’m trying to make my way back to you
my claws scrabble against the hard-packed dirt, and the barbed wire only squeezes tighter, unspools intestines that steam in the cool night air tongue lolling as much as it can, breaths coming fast and painful, i think of your hands on my face, carding through my soft fur
and do you think they’ll pick the daisies and forget me nots that grow under where my thrashing body stilled, watered by my red, red blood?
or will i still be poison to some, like i was when there was still breath in my lungs?
TW/CW for graphic depictions of animal death used as a metaphor for transphobia and homophobia