I’m left in static,
Unable to tune into anything
Without you on my frequency.
Days distort as I search
For the comfort
You always wanted me to find,
I keep looking for you
Just as you would reach for me
Keeping me in your orbit
With a glance of
Unflinching empathy.

There’s a piece of me missing,
A hole, only action and memory
Can move through.
You’re alive in my lifeblood,
You’ll touch everything I love;
A conduit of something
Beyond my understanding.
I’ll pour you into poetry
Break the fourth wall of mortality
To honour you and how much
I grew beside you.  

You cast your eyes over me
As I cut my teeth on words
Balancing my deadlines
And lifeline, bathed
In the resonance
Of the ebb and flow
Of our energy.

You were my arsenal
Of mutually assured affection
Watching over me as I slept
Through the hostility
Of a world warped through
Self-obsession and manipulation.

You taught me how to love
Unconditionally without anxiety
As you tore down my barricades
To saunter inside and find a home.
After appearing as a spectre of connection
We nurtured symbiotic salvation into fruition.
From a sick creature with nothing to offer
into the lifeforce you became
In the freedom of this space
Fated to echo hollow without you.

I’ll never forget what you gave me
The pain is confirmation
We’re still inseparable,
Beyond family, sentimentality
And material reality.