"All this really is so silly. You don't need to cry, you're a big girl"
When really all Im hearing Is how you think I should deal With the world You can't tell it's persevering It's how I choose to heal From the chaos its unfurled
As if it's only suffering You've only known one part You cannot see the peace it brings It humbles my bleeding heart
The sun will start to reach me soon Every time I go outside It's radiation turns me into Someone new and I Will wonder why I stayed inside my room
But just like you can't feel the warmth If you have never felt the cold You cannot learn to love yourself If you choose not to see the old
The habits, the regret The sadness, the unrest It walks hand in hand with the Moments at their best
The laughter, the worth The rotting beauty of the earth It's alive and then it dies It cycles with intent It doesn't bother with goodbyes Just like the night and sky It knows what it's death will represent
I can't ride through that meadow Without coming out with pedals on my bike Just like I'm never clean I'm covered in the residue of my life
And even though I cry It's meaning is never lost on me It's about how hard I try To face the worst and still believe There will be another time I know what all the struggle means It isn't just a knife
The sun will shine The rain will pour I will certainly cry once more In a life that's truly mine
It's not about defeat It's not about demise It's not about trying to compete It's all about surprise The shock and awe To find yourself alive
After all we've suffered After all we bled To hope we can recover That this is not the end
If one day You finally understand Who I was and who I am You might know why I would cry And possibly join in next time
On that day is hope That you can call and tell me If it is really all that silly How I choose to cope
It isn't black and white to me Can't you see That I believe Life is a kaleidoscope Reds and greens of suffering Blue tones of hope Coloide inside A cinemascope
The light that shines Can be so bright It blinds sometimes And all I can do is cry
The suffering is the best part. It helps me see the worth.