I hear the feet steps rush past me
It's a daily occurrence but I'm tired
Of given attention to those that hear me
But can never see me as I am
Stuck in reverse where I look to the past
Beging to be looked passed
Screaming banging on this wall of glass
To be set free from my unrequited sanctuary
It's my own fault I quarantined myself
Was it for self preservation
or simply outta fear
to get near
what I can't understand
Or preservation from all this anguish
The past refuses to release me from
I don't mean to be who I am
Do you not understand me?!?
Or did I never give you that opportunity
All I won't is unity
To hold your hand in mine
To be given love so divine
But how can I ask for that
When I'm stuck behind my house of glass
Waiting to be shattered
Yet I have no stones to throw for that matter
Please just try let me
be seen through to my core
But I do want to show you so much more
Push pass my past
I'm my own worst enemy
I can't deny that fact the mirror mocks me
My reflection distorted
A faceless figure of who I believe is me
Screaming....screaming....stop screaming
My ears are bleeding
I don't mean to be who I am
Please believe me
I never wanted to hurt you
I know my silence is deafening
But it's my only mask I have
Tragic as it is I'm my own nightmare
Trapped hiding behind my wall of glass
That only reflects the things I can't get past
Do you understand?!?
I don't mean to be who I am
I scream again
It's useless I been like this for years
I say through my eyes pooling with tears
Drowning in my own demise
Why can't I get past this disguise
I never wonted to be alone
By this self inflicted fate
Because I push anyone that might
Break my glass
My hellish sanctuary
That protects me?!?
from what.....
Something i no longer desire
See me look pass my distorted image
If I let you......
I will let you
Do you understand?!
Just please hold my hand
An promise me this
That I truly won't die alone
Cuz all I require is unity
Someone to understand
Can you Understand?!?




                      PLEASE......