The games we play
you and me and
our rollercoaster
ups and downs
side to sides
shifting gravity
right-side up but
now upside-down
draw me in to you
throw me out again
so much fire
flaming hot passions

but the chaos
some days I feel
about to snap
burst into bits
spontaneously combust
maybe borrow one
of your blades
and stab you
while you sleep
because the lies
the mind-*******
savage trickery
deceitful games

but when you're good
and you hold me
snug against your chest
your heart beating
drum beats in my ear
the way you
come in for a kiss
the warmth blooming
inside my center
desire and need
and then you
crack a joke
I find myself giggling

and between us
a rather strange
balancing exists
a sense that if
we were healed
from traumas past
living as the
best version of
ourselves, both
that we would
somehow be able
to conquer anything
an epic team
and even now
in the present mess
we're resilient and
have proven we can
get through
difficult, painful things

so despite your
violent behaviors and
verbal abuse
when your anger
burns you up
from the insides
regardless of
so many things
I shouldn't tolerate
all the reasons
telling me I
should walk away
I can't bring myself
to leave you
can't fathom at all
meaning it when
I'm ******* and
tell you it's over
always *******
when I shriek it's
done and goodbye

perhaps one day
I'll run out of
patience for it
reach my limits
split off from you
go down a new road
alone, find myself
make my own way
but that won't
happen any time soon
because there's something
something inside you
a unique force?
unusual energy?
impossible to know
with any certainty
but it bonds us
me to you
and I believe
also you to me
firmly holding us
together, as if
it's our fate to be
and I wouldn't dare
miss out on any
chance we might have
nor our lessons
needing to be learned

I see the good
all that's beautiful
truth of what you
hold within you
so I accept your
darkness, will find
forgiveness for the
moments it
runs the show
hopeful you'll endure
my shadows and
toxicities that I
can't always control

I'd love to just
love each other
through all of it
highs, lows and
every direction imaginable
if we just
don't ever surrender
if we never do
give it all up
delighting in the
good times we have
while finding purpose
and learning ways
we can be improved
when things get bad

it's not at all
a lie when
I say I believe
you're absolutely
worthy of it all

so here's to
another day we've
made it through
decided to keep on
surviving despite our
arguments and upsets
I don't regret
my choice to remain
and I feel
not a bit of
remorse or shame
for wanting to
stay and be
Mr. Moore's girl
and it's with my
whole heart and
my inhuman soul
I speak the words
I'm about to say -

I love you so
very much, Sir
love love love you
beyond what mere
language can convey
and every day
we make it through
gives me more
incentive to keep
my grip on us
held as tightly as I can
so I hope
you feel as inspired
wanting for us
to thrive
with determination
that you'll work for
our relationship
most diligently
and maybe
one day those
games we play
to hurt
one another can
and do subside

I'm all in
if you will be too
it takes two
to tango, ya know?
and I really do
think, feel, believe
I could find
joy in spending
the remaining days
I have in
this particular life
loving you