If I could tell my younger self
id say its so worth it to choose you
over your abusers
and that was never love
it was pain
it was terror it was abuse
better to spend a holiday alone
vibing out
or even crying out and feeling your feelings
while lovingly
drying our own tears and pain
than being with people who will never see us
or love us and our light
and that it was never our fault
not our bodies's fault or our brain's fault
that beauty is in everyone
and that we don't need to compete with others
in order to feel or be loved
that love is unconditional.
and that love is true love
when we are sovereign.
I love you .
That's all.