God how could i be so selfish? to completely turn you away, like i did?... thinking i didn't need you... knowing when i got YOU is the only time i ever have everything ill ever need.. guess nobody really knows what they need the most until you've finally lost it.. when i loose you i only fall deeper into the wreck i already am without you. your every thing and i missed it... all the times life killed me inside, all the times when i cried out desperately for just ANYONE to listen, without being shut down. instead i gave up on you ... the times when the one i looked up to left me and i felt hopeless i wish i would have known sooner that turning away from you was like loosing myself i needed you then... i need you now now i know without you im nothing that my heart is broken without you. i need you God.