Following God some days feels like a cruel joke.
I get my head above some water...
then lose my place and begin to choke.
What is it I'm not doing?
Have I not done enough?
Or is it my heart He is pursuing,
merely a calling of my bluff.
This thought goes on to throw me,
aren't I worth more than being tested to prove
I'm tough?
Or is it because I am worth He is testing,
because I'm already enough.
It is in my heart I raise each question.
Struggling to know...
Is my God really for me?
Or like everyone else...
will He go?