we blindly pray for a greater God
we sacrifice ourselves for a greater good
we search for a meaning
we hope to find
we hope for hope, indeed
still, we are fatally condemned
no salvation
no miracles
no blessings in disguise
just life as it is
as it pushes us to the edge
as it dismantles itself
as it shows its naked flesh

How long is it necessary to mourn for the person you once were?
How long is it necessary to mourn for the person you wish you were but, for some reason, you could never become?

one thing about it is that it inevitably fades
while we run
in the mountains
while hands open
to hold
in vain
and hands close
and mouths open gasping for air
and mouths close again in a hopeless kiss
it is not painful
you still laugh
you still believe
your hands pairing in the air
airplanes flying
flowers blooming and dying
but can't you see, my dear?
it faded

I dreamt of skyscrapers
and landscapes
I dreamt of the height
and, often, I dreamt of the fall
I dreamt of guilt and forgiveness
of blurred memories and lost hopes
I waited for the spring
I waited for a change
yet it never came
still, I linger on
somehow

Is this all?
Is this all that we made?
So far
In the daylight she blooms
She blooms into a lonely night
Right in front of me
I’ll fade into a painful goodbye
Into a warn day
Either sorrow or sunflower

Still a little left
Still a sip or two
Still a laugh or ten
Your eyes judging my sins,
Your pale blue eyes
Your remains
That disturbs my peace
Outside
The dog barks insistently
I hope It will not mind

I wanna memorize every line of your face
I wanna save this moment in a phrase
So when our time ends
And your touch fades away
I'll still have a memorie of you
And that's what will keep me going through