After seven days or so
the grass looks greener on the other side.
So I've been told.

October 8th the worse day.
I'm counting down the minutes.
I'm counting down the hours.
Reminding myself of the worse day of my life.
It's the anniversary.
It's hard to move on and just let go.
People tell me I'm torchuring myself,
when in reality I'm just facing the real world.
Whats happened to me does not define me.
But what I have gone through I know has changed me.
Is that a good thing or a bad thing?
I have all these hopes and dreams.
I'm scared you won't be apart of them.
Or she will **** up.
Or dad will end up going crazy, once more.
All over a date.
A date that'll remain in my life forever.
A date I wish to let go but know I can never,
because I've learned and I've lost. This day is a day where the chapter is new and the print is bold. Not meak.

People come and they go.
Some change us, some teach us.
Some times losing a person is not always a lost.
Its more of a gain if you ask me.

I twirl into you,
grab your hand,
you let it go.
Guess you don't want to dance.

Everybody seems to forget what ive sacrificed.
Things,
Money,
even feelings.
Its a sad cruel world.

One thing after another
Can't be simple,
or positive.
Why?
Why are you like that?
I'm so tired of it.
You say you want what's best for me,
yet your not helping.

Just incase people dont know
God dont pick favorites.
You just got more luck obviously than the man you sit next to.

The heart has a funny way of making
everything a mess.**
The heart always adds more weight
to what is happening in your life.
We always try to ignore the painful feeling.
But in reality once we are alone in a room
we realize our heart is using our mind to its
advantage.

Love is when you can tell a person anything without being afraid. Love is when you stay up late and have long deep talks. Love is how you share with the other person. Love is when you cant imagine that person leaving you, and if they do you feel as if tomorrow is so far away. Love is when you're around the other person and you feel safe. Love can be so many things. Love is special. Love is when you have a rough day and they come and pick you up. These things can be so hard to find. But if you do, don't ever let that person walk through a door and never come back. Love is so rare. To have love is something magical. Never let it slip through your hands.

Step outside and let
the cold breeze
carry you away
with the wind.

Why would I clean a house,
that wasn't even mine?
Listen lady I don't care.
I'm too depressed to clean your ****.
So why would I?

Some days I wish you were here.
At days it feels like its been years since
you were here.
My birthday was long.
I waited for your calls.
Even though none were received
I know you guys are still with me.
I hope I made you very proud
I'm sure I have
But I still wish you were here
With me.

My beautiful best friend.
I have watched you for awhile now.
You finally are starting to become proud of who
you are turning out to be.
My beautiful best friend
thank you for constantly being there for me
whatever the cause may be.
My beautiful best friend
your smile make my day when you are happy
it gives me hope.
My beautiful best friend
Stay with me until the end and
promise to never leave me hanging on a string.

Let's have an adventure,
come down from those clouds boy.
Look me in the eyes.
Love me with all your might.
Let's explore each others souls tonight.
Let me hold your dark heart in my hand and make it pure again.
Make me feel beautiful.
Make me feel young.
Laying in an empty bed at night alone is consuming my mind.
Soothe it with your voice,
my love.