What if I asked,
for you to remove that mask?
I want to see if you're true,
if underneath, it's really you.

And with each turn
of opportunity I have asked
of you to see me and
to quit requiring me to put

my mask back on...
realise, unmasked value:
this is me, and all of who I am;
hopefully, that is enough for you.*




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Tonight I am breaking promises again.
The ones I made to my heart.
That I would not write
poetry to you ever again.
To lock the doors to my heart.
Throwing away the keys
Into the deepest ocean.
To exercise the ghost you left
haunting the ruins of my soul.
As if I was still your home.
As if I was ever enough
to keep you here.
I promised I would let you go.
Surviving and breathing
even with the dagger
you left in my heart.
I promised I did not need thoughts
of you to write my poetry.
But here I am again.
Writing to you more poems.
Because you are at the base
of every one of my thoughts.
And without you
there is no poetry left in me.
So because....because of that.
This is better....this is better....this is better.
Than nothing at all

Fear.

Has picked up my trail
Is looking to find me.

Fear.*

He's right on my tail
He's coming to bind me.

I run through the night
I'm looking behind me.
With no one in sight
I'm running to find me.

Where would I go?
How would I get there?
Will I ever come back?
Would anyone care?

I'm outrunning fear
Running to find me
Who will come near
And help me come find me.

Out of nowhere it strikes me
I fall to the ground
Out of nowhere it fights me 
From pain do I drown

Away from the pain
I go and I swim
But what will I gain 
If I actually win.

I'm running away 
But there's something I lack
I know I can't stay
But do I have to go back?

8/3/13

I made a mistake,
but that's okay we all do.
We're only human.

She's down to earth,
what am I?

One thing after another
Can't be simple,
or positive.
Why?
Why are you like that?
I'm so tired of it.
You say you want what's best for me,
yet your not helping.