p - Hello Poetry

p Sep 2013

consciousness lost
neighbors fighting against one another
clamoring thunder and pungent rain
opposing views
who both believe God is on their side
but, who is right?

devious dictators who twist their words like the twizzler that you ate during lunch
and dissatisfied rebels who want his head on a silver platter
because of the lives lost in the murky, gas infested air
and hearts left behind in the homes they left
home is truly where the heart lies

blameless women and children
are soon just numbers added to the deceased
and their wan corpses are plastered throughout the news

100,000 dead
and as we sit on our couches and eat potato chips,
more are dying
and we need to do something about it

this is a draft about the Syrian Civil War for a government project. no where near finished

p Sep 2013

and

cars passed
headlights gleamed onto your impeccable face
and
your eyes were incandescent
my throat was rough
like the sandpaper that sits in a box in my garage
and
i detained my sobs

your truck was stagnant
and
i wanted it to stay that way
i wanted to throw your keys down the disheveled sewer
and
i wanted you to stay
but we both knew that couldn't be done
and
i'm not sure why saying goodbye is so difficult
but i didn't want you to leave
and
my hands didn't want to desert yours
they never do
and
i already miss you

sorry

p Sep 2013

wooden carvings

someday it will happen .
someday we will hike
to the spot where you carved our initials in the decaying wood
and you will remind me of the promise you had made to me that day
that we would go there together
and you would never let me slip through your fingers
like the dirt under our feet
and i just really hope that the promise you made to me will be kept
because i'm not very tenacious
and i can't go on without you
and i hope i never have to

p Sep 2013

birthday cake scented candles

the power was out in my house
nothing but creaking wood floors
and flickering birthday cake scented candles
and we just stared--
stared into each others eyes
and i was enthralled in them
your cobalt eyes that peered so longingly into mine
and your lips so alluring

i never wanted to leave that couch
and if i had a say in the matter,
i wouldn't have.
but we have many calendars to throw away
and although, it's rather sad
i'm glad that i have something to look forward to
because before you, i didn't have that
and just in case you didn't know,
i love you.

no where near finished

p Sep 2013

wait

patience
is
what
i
need

but the second hand on the old clock
won't move
and the photos plaster my walls
like old floral wallpaper
and it makes me want you more

i wish i could get in my car
and find you and watch the leaves
as their colors transform
and they descend from the trees above
and listen to the trees whisper
"i love you"

but we can't right now
and we both know it
so we must wait

but patience is a hard thing to find
in my love filled mind

p Jul 2013

actuality

It curls my toes
And hits vertebrae after vertebrae
Of my spine
Cold water drips down onto my head
And makes me want to curl up into a ball
I'm not sure why I let the cold water run
I guess I just didn't have the desire to move
And use my tired hands to twist the faucet
I just wanted you
And the cold water seemed to
wake me up from the dream
That I felt as if I was in
Whenever I was in your presence
The water wakes me up from my delirious state
And takes me back to actuality
And all I really know now is that
I'm freezing
And I miss you

2am poetry...sorry.

p May 2013

lurking within

harmful yet tempting
it lurks within
the thought of it
the memories of it

it pierces your heart
with a fine needle
making a design that cannot be taken away
it throbs
pulsating throughout your entire body
rattling your bones
and sending traces of it through your bloodstream

it's venom
it immortalizes you and yet,
you like it
you covet for it
you want the thing that slowly makes you into something you're not

it's slowly eradicating your flesh
and yet, you like
the smell
the sensation
the sound that echoes within your ear canal

harmful yet tempting
it lurks within
and you don't have the tenacity to rid it from yourself

dont really know where i'm going with this