I dont trust anyone

u know nothing about me

i love you sorry about all this mess

terrible

idk why this is so hard for me

people need what is not given to them freely
when they recieve it everything else diminishes into nothing and a relationship is born

i still dont trust you
something isnt right

change your password
keep to yourself

i know things i cant tell u
if i tell u its on me and
i will never let it be that way

u abandoned me at the darkest time in my life and for that i will never forgive you i always was there for you

past life
reunited love
nothing else

U don’t know how to feel for another person it’s all self pity and a sickness in your stomach that you don’t want to feel anymore

i dont want to know you more than i do

why can no one be transparent
even when things are so obvious

starting to believe in none of this is real

I can read your mind
You can read mine
What you built is not what you needed
And I’m still watching over your building

idk if i can take this anymore

******* for using me

everyone can love and respect you in the world and it means nothing if the one you want too doesnt see it

what is the purpose of anything
with everything that is dying

A sphere that no one can penetrate
Alone

done trying im here now but you are not ready

i dont trust you or anyone

real love does not exist

starting to believe love does not exist

maybe i already turned away what i needed

u ask someone please tell me the truth
they lie to you
and thats all there is

no one will ever see u how u want to be seen

how is dark and where is god
approaching the end

terminally sad
in unending repair

nothing is eternal

all i want is real love ever since i can remember everything else  is a byproduct of trying to find this nothing else has ever mattered

a woman riding the beast

reminding myself that every door I open is also an exit

i showed u sylvia plath for her head in the oven
not her words i youtubed hunter s thompson for the ashes in a cannon not the drug use

never meant to feel happiness

u dont even know me
or make the effort

nothing alive is breathing

i really dont think this will work

begins to feel how everything begins to feel

is there anything else

even when im together im alone
no one sees this like i see this

i see u just slide by
like nothing ever happend
like years never happend
like i never showed u life when you were empty
like u never took from me any chance of living right

it all changes in the morning
what i was is gone
u need to embrace reality

already dead u just dont feel it yet

god is just a memory where you need her to be

both of you really ****** me and u know i never deserved it

done giving my whole self to people that dont deserve it

week 1 constant intense ***
week 2 slightly dimished
week three effort dissapears
conversation changes
everyone else is of higher importance
because u have alreay overcame the challenges and claimed what you fought for
texts dissapear
*** dissapears
except for in the movie in their eyes everytime another challenge walks by
and u are alone now together
dreaming of sleeping with other people
for the rest of your life

nothing is forever