Is that what is called failed?
my heart screamed loudly and shook the contents of my body.
already ... everything is useless.
my lips chattered softly.
I want to run away.
Where? but don't know the direction.
if gratitude is not enthroned in this self
already ... be patient! ... my other side is sticking out ...
just pretend I'm tough ...
in front of them ... my dear ones.
hope and prayer are clear. weeding my fear.
yeah i'm scared ..
make them sad.
but again ... already.
they just told me to be grateful ...
make it elegy
but tomorrow must be radiant

like the wind in summer
its faint blew dry in this heart

the earth is old
more vulnerable to damage
the earth is full of heavy burdens
the earth is hurt by ignorant hands

when the earth is no longer friendly
when the earth starts to get angry
humans start to fret
whose fault?
the earth is no longer the same now
humans must begin to improve

he hears your heart voice
he listens your favorite songs
he knows you well more than yourself
he can find you even you stuck in storm
he loves you more than you think

Aku tak mengenal dirimu sebelumnya
kamu tak tahu diriku
tapi saat itu..
Awan abu- abu menggantung dilangit
menumpahkan isinya
ya hujan..
hujanlah yang mengawali pertemuan kita
pertemuan yang indah
hujan jadi saksi cinta kita


NA.2016

I found those feelings
burned in unexpected depth
in a heart of doubt, loss and solitude
confused..
it broke the feelings

Then..
I can find you
even in crowded situation
and I will hug you
in every prayer in the mid night

Loving is not that easy
We ended these badly
Someone with beautiful brain
He always listens
Even without communications
Hope I see you sooner
Cause you want to see me better
i am wondering what would happen further
i hope the door is still open
but don't know when i will enter

Here.. I'm still under the sky
but different place and ground
I feel in medieval era atmosphere
Seeing lots of castles with old architecture
Beautiful view in Montmartre, the custom of art
Pampering my eyes

Autumn creates a wonderful art naturally
This place like a natural canvas
created by a magical brush from God's hand
Though Claude Monete and Renoir aren't exist anymore
I can see the blend colors of autumn with my naked eyes
There is yellow, orange, red and brown
such a lovely painting

Let me wear jacket this day
Cause the air makes me pretty cold
Strolling a countryside of French
Deciduous trees along village street
With bird song around
It's time to harvest
I like pumpkins in the field
Picking apples and pears in the orchard near Talcy castle

French is like a gold treasure
Paris in autumn this month
Eiffel tower is waiting me
I'm walking on the leaves carpet
So crisp under my feet
The maple trees above me shadowing
The leaves twirling
send them to dance in the air
Exceedingly romantic
I was sitting on bench wood
Oh.. if September comes

NA.2016

there are some things that I don't allow the horizon to know.

don't get bored making stories with me.

rain poured down the city streets
water drops like a curtain made tight
thick afternoon
the spot of light splashed with the rain drops on the freezing road
for me a bit stiff

along with mother's umbrella
I sat down to wait on the long bench
until the dark night that gobble began to touch
along with father's jacket
I passed the rest of my stop

they are the stars of this universe, guiding me from the dark
light of luck for each of my tracks
estuary of infinite love

the other corners I memorized
luminous home lights sharp my eyes
the smell of blissful happiness when I arrived
finally i'm back ..

I'm lost..
in a dark forest
feel cold and lonely
the trees just standing around me
staring me suspiciously in silence
bury my courage
help..
I wanna run away
cause this is too horrible
Oh.  If i could borrow a nymph robe
to go from this chill place..

I do not want to stay behind you
just like a shadow.
because if danger comes,
You are the first to hit that
I'll just want to stay by your side
because I will hold your hand tightly
because we will face it together
Whatever happens

The sun greets softly in the morning stage
Ricefield carpet so greenish refreshing the melancholy eyes
It's time to wake up
Birds orchestra with sound of water flowing can be heard
Such a nice music of nature
The wind blew the rhythm so the trees are dancing
Celebrating the beautiful days as usual
Life has just begun
Under the roof of the pretty blue sky
The farmer goes to his field
Walking on a wooden bridge with cadence
through a cheerful river below

there is still time
for eating an ice cream
feeding flowers
seeing rainbow
and loving..

I can't make a tremendous poem
It's too hard to portray
and construct words become pretty nice
I'm quite callous
for you, I just want to say
that I extremely like you

I told you at dusk
About the day I passed
Along the sun and even the rain
And I put my story together

But sometimes I tell you at night
In fact, the moon and stars are also chatting
Yes, if the day does not rain
They dare to meet me

I try to understand their language
The same thing that they do
But I admit they are good listeners

I'm still standing by the window
Understand gestures and wait for their answers
For the question I am asking about someone
And entrusted them a secret message for him

like a day
there's darkness
you can't see everything
the stars are so far away
when the light comes
you'll be grateful
because you can see everything
you then find your way
and you know how to appreciate a good thing

the stories that I've got
from a man with his guitar
everyday we talk about sweet thing
even we don't face each other
singing a song in every single chance through phone
I don't know how to say
you give paintings of me
send me your tasteful voice
with rhythm in every part
love song is always my favorite since I knew you

Like the rainbow..
you are colorful, bring cheeriness into my soul
Like the star..
your charm can be seen from a distance
Like the rain..
Each grain is your love it makes me overwhelmed
Like the moon..
Every time can be changed but you are still you with a pure heart
Like the sun..
You touching me with the warmth
Like the wind..
you whisper the sweet words about love every second

Disini aku masih di bawah langit milik bumiku
Tapi berbeda tempat dan aroma tanah
Aku merasa di atmosfer era abad pertengahan
Melihat banyak kastil dengan arsitektur tua
Pemandangan yang indah di Montmartre, sebuah kerajaan seni
yang siap memanjakan mataku seketika

Musim gugur menciptakan lukisan indah secara alami
Tempat itu seperti kanvas
Diciptakan oleh kuas ajaib anugrah yang kuasa
Meski Claude Monete dan Renoir sudah tidak ada lagi
Aku bisa melihat perpaduan warna cantik di musim gugur dengan mata telanjang
kuning, oranye, merah dan coklat
Lukisan yang begitu indah

Biarkan aku memakai jaket hari ini
Sebab udara membuatku cukup dingin
Aku berjalan-jalan di pedesaan Prancis
Pohon-pohon gugur di sepanjang jalan
ditemani oleh nyanyian burung yang menyemarakan hariku
Ini sudah waktunya panen
Aku menyukai labu di ladang
Memilih apel dan pir di kebun dekat benteng Talcy

Prancis seperti harta karun emas
Paris di musim gugur bulan ini
Menara Eiffel sudah menungguku
kali ini aku berjalan di atas dedaunan
Begitu renyah di bawah kakiku
Pohon maple di atas saya memayungi meski hari tak hujan
Daunnya yang tersentuh angin berputar-putar
Mengirim mereka untuk menari di udara
Sangat romantis
Aku sedang duduk di bangku kayu
Ah jika September tiba...

Katanya aku berani
suatu masa pernah kuikuti bela diri
tetapi dibilang seperti lelaki
sedikit sulit untuk merelakan ucapan lewati kuping kiri
padahal seringkali harus kulakukan segalanya sendiri
kadang pernah berandai punyai saudara atau saudari
Ya, aku tahu itu cuma mimpi
Kusyukuri saja dan nikmati
Katanya lagi pasti semuanya dituruti
tidak seperti yg dipikiri
terkadang kucicipi sunyi
namun ada yang lebih sepi
toh nantipun disana* juga sendiri
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then I slowly walked away
trying to run from the blue part of the heart
the wound does not look at anyone, does not see face or anything.
I have left all my heart.
but I found now formless.
I don't want to run.
Stay ... I just want to repair my heart back well
I know you accidentally made my heart fall and bruised.
it hurts really ... but it hurts more if I don't love anymore
because I believe, your heart is kind ...

I'm still trying to understand
how the sky emerges the signs to make meaning
how the star interacts with other stars
how the moon portrays the gestures
but I love to see the lamps in every corner of house from the window
and I think this is the language of light in the night

Let the wind blows
then you fell down
no problem if droplets of rain
make you pretty wet
cause the earth will hug you..

when mouth can't talk anymore
but tears fall down
it doesnt mean you are sad
but it means you are crying

loving or loved
its all about love
burn down your feelings
to another strange place
you want to die in every single day
if there's no chance to see

and then
there's a time
when you trapped
in my ribs

some are reluctant to meet the hope
if it's just empty hope
some are afraid to meet the taste
if the taste is not reciprocated
but wait, I am here..
trying to be brave
armed with trust
because love does not have to have a reason
a word of love is very meaningful
but pray for you in my prayers every night,
it's so much better
because it makes me feel at peace
only my God and I know

the naughty waves hit my feet
the sea greeted me at the meeting
a murmuring whisper of wind led me to open my eyes
and also my heart
I want to sail wherever the boat goes
write a letter in a bottle,
then I'll drop it in the middle of the sea
there is a dream written
wait till that happens

I'm an admirer of the night sky
chatting each time if I have free time
spell my dreams
wiggle the index finger in the sky

the sound of the wind evokes conscience
my dream wants to come true soon
moon plays its role
gives a big point of light
a lovely light in the dark
I 'll try to be brave
more bold than ever

some people say that
falling in love is easy
but in fact love is the readiness to allow another human to fill a part of us
just like a puzzle
Does the puzzle piece fit?
there are hundreds of pieces scattered about.
to make it whole,
there are many things that must be passed
lost, difficult to match or swapped

He came to her house
brought doll and the most important thing is want
his heart quite afraid
his heart beat fastly
but he tried to hide it
because he wanted to look cool
he said what is in his heart
to the girl that he loves the most
his heart chooses bravely
he loves the girl since in senior high school
no one knows
even he hides his feelings from the world
the girl ignored him
but he still have the same feelings
he makes songs for her
full with sweet lyrics and his heart voice
he draws her face everytime he misses that girl
he never give up
then the girl says that she exactly has the same feeling
since the first time she saw him

this is my feelings
there's no time to say if this is too late
I just want to say
that this is yours

trust yourself
and don't compare yourself with others

I'm between silence and sadness
I can't talk about my chatter
I don't want people to know
drowning out my voice is what I have to do
silence has taken root
rain falls on my cheeks
let everything settle in the chest
then let me borrow your name for me to paste in prayer
.

Heart sings a song of my feelings
hope you can hear deeply
ricocheting a rhythm of love
so you can feel it strongly
you're the colour of my tune
I'll create our own music
spreading splash melody
and let's dancing together
just you and I

Untukmu selembar kertas
Tidakkah kamu pernah berpikir
Ini tak semudah ketika aku menggambar garis atau titik
Ini lebih rumit dari pada gulungan tali
Aku bahkan tidak bisa membuat sketsanya
Tapi aku coba merangkai kata demi kata
dengan pena kesukaanku
Itu semua adalah mimpiku
mungkin hanya Dia dan kau saja yang paham
aku menulis semuanya, sederhana saja
namun ku tahu itu tak akan cukup
selalu kuselip dalam doa semua harap
Aku hanya percaya..
suatu hari, suatu saat
mimpiku yang pernah ku pahat akan terwujud