did you know
i dreamed of you
almost every night?

dreamed of chasing you,
begging you,
an almost pathetic longing

for years and years
until i finally
fell out of love with you.

i still dream of you
once in awhile,

but it's not me
giving chase anymore,

it's you.

I want to believe in steady things,
but even my own reflection changes
when I look too long.
Are you here?
Do you love me?
Will you stay?
I ask without asking,
watching for the answer
in the way your hands move,
the way your breath hesitates before a word.

I know I feel too much,
ask too much,
but the silence between us is louder
than anything I could say.
So I fill it.
With words, with fear, with love—
all spilling over,
all too much,
all at once.

And still, I wonder, if it’s enough.

5-6-25   2:29pm

underneath the glitter
the lights
behind the music that makes your ears ring
the screams
and so much rage

there's someone who longs for love
bathes in the quiet
reads her poetry
and sits in solitude


do you see it?
most likely not
she buries it deep
hides it behind a shield
masked as an armor
protected from society

we all want to love
and be loved

the right way

4-14-25   7:50pm

I ran into you the other day
at the local coffee shop

please don't look at me like that
like no time has passed
like you're genuinely happy to see me

why do you surround yourself with them?
they dim your light
they suffocate your soul

I can see you trying to break free
like a bird from a cage
a thought from a brain

to think I still get nervous around you
as if time hasn't passed


interesting how the universe makes us run into each other
it's not the first time
but i'm hoping it's the last

cigarettes after *** playing in my ears
I look up
it's cloudy
I lose my footing
and smile to myself

it's warm again

we met in the winter
but became strangers by spring