"You're strong.
You're going to get out of this dark cloud
With some tears
Or
No Tears at all.
But when you recover
You will be okay Corea."

All I ever wanted was to be happy.
It was stripped by the demon under my soul.
All I ever wanted to be beautiful,
It was stripped by the words that my mind control.
All I ever wanted to do is scream happiness
But my tears overruled.
All I ever wanted was to be accepted.
But....
I could not let go of the lies my lips spoke
I didn't let my heart demand success
I always victimized myself.
I say change , but what is change when I am blindly impaired to what is hope?
I am more than the world sees me.
I am Nicole Joann Corea
I wanted to be strong through the dark tunnels.
Light will illuminate, I will sing through the somber moments.
Ignite my dormant motivation.
Let there be no more I can't or excuses
I have come far, I survived.
I am beautiful
I am smart
I am capable
I love me
I discover, I am and always be
Nicole Joann Corea

My heart is escaping on a thin line,
I never meant to hurt nobody,
I didn't mean to start a war,
I just let myself go in this profound thing we call....

                                **Passion

I am falling into the dark side , my heart is restless and my mind is caving in disaster.
Who am I .
I know my name, but is it my name?
Who am I.
I move, I shake, I cry, I speak
But cannot love myself or anyone.
Who am I really?  
I am lost , broken, melancholy heart
Singing the blues under the red moon.
Who Am I ?

The road stretches far beneath me
Diverging into two cross paths.
I linger to think where to go.
I decide
With the right I go
Looking for you, in longing to hold you again
As i walked down this right road to relieve the wrongs.
The screams, the brutality of what was called love once.
I cannot break free from the chains of your heart.
I cannot think for myself always winding up on the right road to relieve the wrongs.
                  *  I am a weak prisoner.

I wonder what is like to fall in love.
To feel beautiful every day.
To be wanted.
But I know what is like to love myself.
Thats the love i will ever need.

I remember
When I wanted the world in the palm of my hands.
When I crave for adventure
When I was hungry for experiences.
I remember
When I stood up for what I loved
When I push my body to the extreme
When I said no to the sad life.
But now I feel
Emptiness,
Useless,
colorless,
Now I want death on the palm of my hands
I don't no longer know who I am..

Insomnia lurks within my mind.Pain hovers over my heart. Will my soul ever be happy again.

I have everything.
   But yet I feel so
                              **Alone

There's a war between you and I.
I have fallen into the bloodshed, we once called love.
There's no remorse for our never-ending failures.
On the battlefield , we go in and fight for the misunderstanding.
For the liberty of hatered in our hearts.
We let go of our fears with every **** we make.
This is for the victories we try to aim for.

Shattered heart, bleeding soul, braindead.
Paralyzed to the haunting, you imprinted on me.
Blinded by your crimes, making me believe its me.
Deaf to your abusive remarks
I am insane for returning.
Lost the sanity of love.
Incapable to let go of
Insane for believing hate for love.
I am insane for thinking this love I deserve.
Lost the sanity of respect
I really loved someone like that?

Come climb up
Discover within the branches of my  tree.
As you inspect
The branches I have torn from my tree are only those who have scorn my soul.
Each creases share my story, as the creases get deeper you will know my naked heart.
Each leaves share my chameleon personality
As you climb higher
You learn what is weak and what is strong
What I can offer with each branch.
I am a muse to protecting you.
Share my tree to inspire the rest of the world.

The stars aligned together under the blue moon where the dogs whistle their somber tune.
Restless nights linger every now and then.
My melancholy mind follows the dark tunnels where a broken record replays my memories. My heart echos for the beat it needs.
My soul lusts for the passion, the light had brought me.
I have no sense of direction to experience what I want.
Just the memories you imprinted in my mind.

My
         WEAKNESS
                             Has
                                       DIED....

It
        Has
                         REINCARNATED
                                                   
                                              Into
  
  
                                                    **STRENGTH

Mom, how you not accept that your daughter was hurt.
A lively rainbow soul was stripped, shattered, misuse by a man you once trusted.
Mom , I was afraid of the bathtub, not because of drowning into the drains.
It was because of the man you once trusted.
I was afraid of sleeping in my bed, not because of the scary movies.
It was because of the nightmares my body had to endure by the man you once trusted.  
Mom, the bruises and scars were not from the playground.  
They were from the man you trusted.
I am incapable of loving someone especially myself.
You stood and watched my life stripped by the man you once trusted

My mirror guides an unknown dark visage.
I stare into what use to be mine.
The dark enitiy has stripped my dignity.
His love became the imprisonment of my soul.
Gaunt eyes , broken smile, its not who i am.
How can someone you love become your worse enemy?
My silhouette prances at dawn longing to escape the toxity of the demon's love