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446 · Jun 2015
Back to Isolation
Nicole Ashley Jun 2015
It's so quiet
Yet crowded in my head
Why was I so stupid?
You were right there
In front of me
I could have done something..
But I didn't
Oh...
Why didn't I?
I could punch out all the walls
And scream your name
Through the windows
But..
That won't change anything
Because now I'm alone...
I just wish I did something to make you change your mind...I've been thrown into something I don't want to do..But I guess it's too late to turn back time..
435 · Jun 2015
Time is an Essence
Nicole Ashley Jun 2015
I sit in this half darkened room listening to the clocks tick and tock. Where would I like to be? Away from here, honestly. Time is but an essence and I'm sorry. It probably felt like this room. Where your darkest thoughts crept silently in the shadows and all you could hear was that clock that ticked words of remark, down to the color of your skin. The words that weren't even mine but they still shut you in. And they shut me out at the worst time of all. But time is an essence, master of all. If never fails to watch me fall. We watch the clock from opposite sides of the door and listen to the quiet that we've both succumbed to. A door I wish I could easily step through. But I'll lay here in wait and sleep now and then, till it decides to open again. Until then, I'll listen and talk to the ghost of the girl who lit the world on fire and wishes she was anywhere but here.
I literally listened to a clock while writing this.
435 · Mar 2015
Just Thinking: Part Two
Nicole Ashley Mar 2015
We were brought to this destruction
These broken houses you see
That's me
Abandoned to wither away
That *was
me
A different war, gone to this day
I must say
Inside you
Inside me
War and destruction  kept at bay
Because here inside this abandoned place
Love was made
Fire in a fighter, adjacent
These crumbling walls for art to display
Of creative minds with something to say
War and destruction left to wither
"I am not afraid
I will be okay"

This is a sanctum
A private place of broken glass
Of broken walls
Of broken ceilings
All these broken thoughts and feelings

We were brought to this destruction
It shows innocent strength under all corruption
A war full of meaning
In a place where peace is seeming
Through it's artful colored walls
The air still stiff and quiet and all
My love was fed with fire to feed
Under the sun from the holes in this ceiling
I need you to know we have a meaning

This place is me
A fire in a fighter
I will not stop my war
Unlike all these abandoned houses
You won't be forgotten and useless
From even before we came to this destruction
This apparation
I always knew there would be more
For you and me
For our eyes to see
**My fight had more fire when we walked out that *door
420 · May 2018
Scared
Nicole Ashley May 2018
I'm scared I'll be so happy
That I'll forget about you over time

But then I think

And then I remember

That you're already gone
411 · Mar 2019
Want
Nicole Ashley Mar 2019
What I want
Is for you to smile
What I want
Is to stay a while
What I want
Is to hold me close
What I want
Is you the most
393 · Jul 2019
Yin and Yang
Nicole Ashley Jul 2019
Your smile kills me

In good ways and bad

Now that you're free

It makes me happy and sad
It's been a long while since I've written anything. I've been in a funk and a lot of things have happened. Not sure I'm completely back, but I guess this is a start.

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