Tension in my tendons
My hands itch badly
My palms sweating profusely
I need to love you sadly
You leave me broken down
To wither in the wind
Eroding by myself
To conjure strength within
Your blow had took its tole
As man takes hands from thieves
Nobody taught me bout
The birds and buzzing bees

I see the flower growing
no water just blood flowing
My brothers all distracted
no brains to counteract with..

The violence is appalling
reminders of the drawling
Are constantly broadcasted
incased in shiny plastic..

Beautiful and shiesty
the flower nurtured so
By every evil soul
delivering the blows..

If clarity is water..
most are dehydrated
If wisdom was a homie
most are very unaquanted..

I wanna go back to the edo way of life,
Cutting with my blade every single source of strife.

Like black fabric
Adorned in lint and fuzz
Your impurity is shown in the light
Like a nocturnal mammal
You feed in the night
consistently your prey
I provide you with your supper
A platter silver plated
Degraded as your ******..
Maybe thats why iv recently found joy in the pain
a tolerance for dégradation
The void is the same..
opportunities to pick myself a slightly wilted flower
To love that thing forever as if it was at full power
Looking past the imperfection that is all but pretty
Unless you do enjoy the thorns that mad your hands all gritty..

We always settle
Perfection isn't real
you love what you are given
Accept the best of deals
Not wondering what if there was something a lot greater
For that would tear apart whats in your hands
now or later..

The clouds above my head are grey like palpatines face.
The love of my life,
is green like piccolos race.
I burn it in flames,
at very rapid rates.
To keep my anger tame,
Rage under control.
I love you Mary jane,
You ******* soothe my soul <3.

Delirious from fending the wolves from the sheep, a lamb will live to see another dawn. If you do not allow yourself to grow, you will die early on.

Stepping out on a body of water
Adorned in flower buds
I assumed it was land and sunk

The sky was so pretty
My soul feeling ******
Quite close to letting go

Its hard to see Zion
Underneath your body
Flowers blanket the top

I try to swim up
But i am pulled down
Don't know how to make it stop

My soul began screaming
My energy teaming
A Snake had rose up my spine

It feels like iv lost it
The thing i held precious
Beauty lovingly mine

Ascending through darkness
Clawing through sorrow
I found myself at the top

Upon my emergence
I still felt much pain

Nothing was different
All was the same


Fear is beneath me
No sun above

Wading in water
But longing for love..

You find a shoddy person
use them as a home
For your heart to rest
and call that place its own
Often your evicted
These landlords are the worst
love can be a blessing
More often its a curse..

White flag danced for days
the bullets didn't hit
They only slightly grazed
Retreated in the maze
to formulate some plays
His brothers left him last
absorbed inside their ways..

Apparently theres actually a bad time for love.
Apparently theres a lack of sentiment from those above.
Apparently were being watched by fed and all his homies.
Apparently if i **** up ill end up far below me.

Gradually the trees will grow and give of lots of zen.
Gradually our bodies break apart while we pretend.
Gradually we find ourselves until we meet our end.

I miss the feeling of being young,
knowing nothing at all.
Blissfully running through life,
unworried if you'll fall.
Life is but a dream,
Until you are awakened.
Rising abrupt from slumber,
feeling chopped like lumber..

I hope i was the only one
going into love
Thinking it'd be fun ;
excuse me
For those many moments i was loopy
scribbling my hatred into notebooks and looseleaf..
Eyes covered well
excited by your voice
Following your smell
i threw away my shell
To keep up with the pace
but then you said farewell
As far as i could tell..

What if everything was already broken, words from our minds that should not have been spoken. Longing for feelings of your skin on mine, Longing for someone to find me divine.

I heard
the lord did nothing for a loser
Why create me a shoddy willed drug abuser ;
used to watch when small as the sun rise and fall
Now i sit inside but cant escape the fiery ball
crippled by depression
My weapon is my mind
so of-course it figures
into it devils grind ;
Their paws
the people clapped their hands and show applause
When another brother who mislabeled is in gauss  
quick to point the finger
"Muslims are the enemy"
"evil white oppressor"
Aren't we all the same
the only standing difference
Is skin color and name..

I heard ;
that dog eat dog was never the way
As if people were at peace before on some later date
planned on bringing wood to burn
To reset that fire ;
till i grew to know my brothers and became uninspired..
My heart is often shriveled
anxiety derailing
As if before i start i slip and fall already failing
i heard that god was evil
He basked in the light
if you questioned his work
you were cast in the night
I would sit in the trees
when the sun's feeling down
As i spoke to the moon
with my feet off the ground.

Fall for me like the water..falls into itself. Love me like the sun loves to flex his brilliant shine, When kisses spark addiction and excitement leaves you blind. Until she feels confliction, between her flesh and soul. Unsure if your the one that was suppose to make her whole.

You wait while she decides, pray that you are chosen. You aren't the lucky one, The walls are all now frozen.

Did not wish to be another waste of space
adorned with your mind
Blessed with your face
growing up first not last malefactor
Wishing he could die not cry times after
you molded what i liked
You modeled role for me
you did things in the shade
As if i wouldn't see
Im happy when im high
Floating like the leaves
when winter is afoot
When carried by the breeze

I step foot in the lobby
i was just in my bed
Moon ascended up high
devils touching my head
I was sleeping in sweats
but in here im well dressed ;
**** is awfully odd
everyone looks at peace
All awaiting the call
to descend to the beast
Elevator comes down
people cramming inside
Some were not dressed as nice
and the doorman aint right ;
I think now i remember
i had wished death upon me ;
Sorry satan you mistaken i was speaking to Kami
try to leave from this place
I dont know how i came
elevator comes down
In my mind pouring rain ;
i get shoved in the box
Hits the bottom in seconds
as the doors open wide
sort of struggling in shock
i had shut both my eyes ;
when i opened them wide
I was still in my bed
sun ascended up high
Devils touching my head

Some of me wants to scream
most of me wants to die
Devils climbing like monkeys
tearing all at my spine
Try to leave em behind
chasing after divine
When i wake from my rest
devils infest my mind
I heard existence is pain
i heard pain makes you strong
My lack of patience is ******
this narrow road is too long
To keep you my pride was tucked
draining myself of luck
Raining such heavy drops
straining in mud im stuck
Shallow is not the muck
screaming out what the ****
Breaking my housing walls
heading depressions call
Shaking the tree for fruit
waiting for some to fall
All of the fruit was rotten
by mistorturne im mauled.

Delicate as you were our love was cast away like wilson. I ate the fruit and basked in joy as ploys were set to feel some, kind of arbitrary. The way we rose to crash and fall was quite unnecessary.  Your soul infests me barely.

It used to make me whole, Used to sooth my mind. Used to to pay no tolls, Used to have you here. Used to have no fear, I used to love you endlessly and now the end is here.

Never thought we'd die. My mind was always lost because your presence got me high, My shine was always tossed because id rather be in yours. I loved you like iv never loved anyone before.

No one's sweet anymore
people taste bitter
****
unsatisfying
Everyman for themselves ;
my heart crying
Where is love ;
that honey flavored bliss i wish to find
So that i forget about the blades which came behind

Sit and watch the breeze pass
poison for recreation
Blame the feds after long awaited debilitation
Sit and watch the breeze pass
poison for education
Blame the feds after long endured deprivation
Sit and watch the breeze pass
weaker state of mind
Understanding nothing ever at this point and time
Sit and watch the breeze pass
surprised your still alive
Eating what the fed has to offer to the blind
Sit and watch the breeze pass
Laughing at your kin
Knowing nothing new..
a bush under your chin..

Some slip away, if you try to grip them. implying that you shouldn't have or else they wouldn't slip in..a world without you. Todays another day, Another day for sorrow. Let it full your lungs, exhale when your in pain. Breathe in when you are over and encumbered by the strain. Sorrow is the light that may lead you to the day, when you are motivated to rise and not let yourself decay.

Some flowers dance while some wilt and die, some dogs eat other dogs to survive. Success will hide from you like a spider that escaped. Clarity's legs open wide no restraint.

When your finally inside, success within your grasp because theres no place left to hide. Hands in the sky hold your pride for all to see, Success is in my grasp in the dark it called to me.

The body is a temple
Some are kind of shoddy
Some are monumental..

I like to test the mote
Dancing with the crocks
Maybe i will die
Maybe i will not..

Laughter from the sky
Laughter from my eyes
You see it clearly now
No longer asking why
I told you once before
I had a lot in-store
A lot of renovations
For my temples nation..

The people that it houses
Shouldn't be inside.
The doors aren't fit to walk in
They aren't very wide.
My temple is unfurnished
and hot like a furnace..

If you don't like it leave..
I don't have doors though so you can come any time..^.^
I dont really mind.

Flowers growing in my heart..Bees will make love to their faces. Empty spaces in my chest iv yet to find  replacements...Something in your aura, foreshadowing adjacency from blazing loves euphoria.

The birds would sing about her, The trees were always watching, I often dreamed about her, until my blood was splotching..

The rabbit laughing as he passes the turtle
theres a pit coming up
now his body is curdled

To rip me up and plant me somewhere else is very cruel,
but i love you so. I guess ill grow..

Smile on a mask
vile for the cash
Survival is ***
connive till you last
knives show you how
long you can thrive
Get with the times
or don't stay alive
Message propagated
poison concentrated
Pick your favorite one
and grow decompensated ;
Young fool
old school like dunkaroos
Demons like the kool aid man
straight bustin through..

There was this kid in college
pursuing his growth with knowledge
Towards elders he payed his homage
although troubled inside ;

Everyday after classes
fraternities caught em slackin
They told em he should be packin
he should not hold no pride ;

He questioned why they aint like em
they beat em and tried to sike em
Quit often at school he's frightened
out his mind he would go ;

After he called his master
jehovah many don't know off
The holy among the holies  
he would cry for his help ;

Why do you let them do this
they ruthless
Beating me toothless
he knew this but he said nothing
It was all in his plan ;

Walking from class and thinking
he saw em tried to avoid em
They followed to leave em hollow
he was angry inside ;

They smacked em
about the action
One had a bat and swung it
they took his bag and they flung it
He type wanted to die ;

Now months had passed he was enduring the stress
grades declining
Sorrow climbing
wasn't doin his best

Oh how could he achieve
soar and reach for his dreams
When these ******* kept him under
forced a trick up his sleeve ;

It was sunny-
he was bummy as he usually was
He approached em after class
they where they usually was
They had laughed in his face ;
called em broke and a ******
Wasn't laughing for long
since he pulled out the matic ;

Sporadic they started movin
the fear in they faces soothin
He told em you try to run
im puttin lead in you all ;
One pushes his homie forward
while falling hes contemplating
Debating why they had caused this
bullets fly out the gun ;
He wet up the one who fell
they others had tried to scatter
A marksmen right at that moment
he had aimed for they heads ;

Laughing while he had killed em
four out of the five had fallen
The last of em slowly crawling
he walked up to him fast ;
Crouching he looked right at em
he pleaded we were just joking
Fun poking he said he's sorry
Jacob laughed in his face

Last of the fallen bullies
was crying as he was dieing
Delighted the bummy murderer put two in his brain ;

He said look at you now
i will not be destroyed
By the likes of you all
the police had been called ;

The sirens he heard em comin
he figured no sense in runnin
Since god had never responded
**** this life aint my own ;

His eyes had looked upward gazing
he felt his sorrow degrading
Visions of success fading as he let himself go ;

With the gun to his head
tried to finish himself
Heard it click several times
their were no bullets left ;

Now the cops are arriving
his heart was dropping and diving
His bravery was comprising of the bullets he had ;
figured jail was no option
They'd **** em
he couldn't stop em
So thinking quickly decided he would die by the ops ;

Their screaming telling him freeze
no time for buckling knees
He bolted headfirst at cruisers screaming top of his lungs ;

The officers open fire
fulfilling desperate desires
His soul would have raised higher had he tried something else ;

Now wet up he couldn't get up
but happy free from his burdens
His parents died long ago so he had no real regrets ;

DMT danced inside him
it took him to early childhood
Remembered when his parents had been loving him so ;

Toward fire he was descending
escaping is now pretending
While burning he saw the bullies he had sent to this place ;

While tortured they chained together
their skin was hanging and tethered
No laughing no getting over what his life had become ;

No resolve but the truth  
their was no going back
If your seeking revenge
you should prolly relax..

Masks on every face..
some are very unaware.
Undeclared,
Unprepared.
Fed sits tight,
in his lair.
Crafting toxins for the air,
placing noxious things in food.
Having propaganda news
Showing nothing but the blues..
I see,
How life is going to be.
You have to cut and claw,
for other folk to see.
You have to strive to win,
and put your brothers second.
Refusing to assimilate i find a different weapon..

So im told
stay within the mold
Disobey the old
following the young
Sprung..
eating all the fruit
Nature's very giving
humans are obtuse
Dispute
wether
We are ''liberating''
killing them for killing
It's quite debilitating
To watch
blood filled socks  
Negative experience
need to detox ;
I dont ******* care
about your **** or ***
Your soul is pretty foul
the *** ill always pass
Id rather have l o v e..

Frail human beings,
we look but cannot see.
Destroying all our land,
unchained but still unfree.
Frail human beings,
United we don't stand.
Instead we step on brothers,
to **** and then expand.
Frail human beings,
We touch but cannot feel.
The lasting consequences of the lives that we steal.
Frail human beings,
Enthralled in fame and wealth.
To acquire both would you sacrifice yourself?..

Out of gas
out of joy
Devoid
lacking energy
severed
Depressed
confused
A mess
anxiety inside
My chest
im pressed
Looking for an answer
something to clear the way
My mind perplexed and clouded
with heaving disarray
I used you as a bridge
you broke as i was crossing
I hate myself for this
no medicine for pain
The harm has much to give
iv everything to gain

I always wondered how this man could pass up such a bride,
A woman as entrancing as the sky is blue and wide.

A dagger in my liver
your lips are out my mind
The vibe is very bitter
your love i cannot find
I searched far and wide
Elongated my stride
You deficated on me while my eyes were open wide..

Zen inside the water
Peacefulness at night
Although I'm awake for most of it..
I never had friends
with overextended strings
I always had words
sharp as daggers they sting
Anger in the trees
Their siblings are chopped down
They gave us air to breath
Never seen as profound
We always take advantage
Use abuse and destroy
Everything that loves us
Like children with their toys

Some brothers step on other siblings to survive
Morals fall to dirt like the raindrops from the skys
Unseen and left unfelt they sit and rot with hate and vengeance
Longing for the day they gain revenge with their ascendance
Peace is never felt when family leaves family in pieces
Strongest of the strong crippled as money is their weakness
What if someone stepped on the faces of those you eat with
Would you draw your blade?
Would you slice away until their soul is slain and caved?
Would you jump for joy as a mother has lost their child?
Returning home with blood on your body from actions vile..

Not a good look
Staring at the clouds
Demons in the shade
Evade in smokey shroud
I see them all the time
They don't attack out loud
Their tactics soaked in grime
They make their brothers proud
The speed is not sublime
He could've saw it coming
Too focused on his needs
Blades soaked in blood
Brothers possessed by greed..

Too tired to create
too vigorous to die
My past lives itch when id rather sit or lye
my third opened wide when these devils came to haunt me
Federals amphetamines designed to keep you raunchy

Id like to be indifferent
alas im like the rest
Smile upon on my face
sorrow in my chest

I embody an eclipse since the day i lost the ability to kiss your lips. You were my shining sun, I played the roll of moon. You helped me glisten bright..until we reached our doom.

How could i not see
the distance separating from a love that couldn't be
Was nice ;
extending overwhelming pay a price
Payed it out in segments wasn't one with much ice
think twice ;
Maybe three four five
trust issues grow seems the longer he's alive
They thrive ;
invisible to all besides himself
Manifest inside coerce degrading of his health...

Heart bruised
very few to lose
Why so grim you are not in damaged shoes
my souls ;
However should have long been replaced
head unfitting for the mask on my face
Path type rigid on the floor stayed the poor
tell you not to feed em
They'll come and ask for more..

Emptied pockets for the weak as im hallow too
Smacked his sun outa sight nice follow through
dont let grief open wide or it swallows you
End up like me missing hair follicles..

Chasing the alluring
everyones a hunter
Until you are down under
and can no longer plunder ;
Vast
the shadow from the light that you had cast
I felt the cool inside and hoped our days would never pass
green grass didn't seem to help too much
Grey clouds danced in the skies in the clutch ;
aloud
I failed
i let my people down
Drowned beneath my sorrows
i couldn't make a sound.

Unseen like the breeze
they say its a disease
Mental
existential
Lack essentials
nice parental ;
Seemed it meant nada
remain low key
If you not a top shotta  ;
so it goes
Ache from the soul
never feel whole
Till his hands reach his goal
high like the sun
Drive wasn't fun
regret filled his lungs
Exhaled lots
got got ;
Buried in the shade
trees kept him cool
Against his cards raged
friends out phased
Tall walled maze
pretty ****** lost
Slummed out days

You see the pain thats coming
It falls on you like rain
Umbrellas left at home
Don't take the hurt in vain

Nobody cares bout your heart ache
start making money
Walkin round town folks
looking at me funny ;
No practical skills
not a lawyer or a genius but..
I can tell you how it feels
in multitudes of ways
To not wanna be real
to want to fade away ;
I can show you how
my inner being drowned
From being in this town
from staying on the ground ;
Everyones an alpha dog
always looking down ;
Never eat the scraps
just leave them on the ground ;
I often danced to sounds
like no one was around
To noise they couldn't hear
till no one was around..

When pain becomes an ocean my brain becomes a boat, i brave the waves that attempt to sink my ship then cope. Sirens sing in foreign places which i cannot see, im lost at sea. Now the cold has frosted me.

I found the voice that vocalized its seering pain by will, for some to find while others grind behind with lacking skill. She spoke with me her words of hearty wisdom helped me rise. I left my ship and ocean to became one with the skys.

The shepherds asleep
His cane on the floor
He shut out the light
He shut tight the door
The sheep are outside
Alone on their own
To fend for themselves
Home now battle zone

Used to being down ;
not used to smelling **** piles close to the ground
Its funny
cuz usually i find their hand and hand
Fragile as the castle that you firmly built from sand ;
outside rigid like the horn of a rhino
Always wit Marry never really was a whino
sitting in the trees as he watched his brothers time fold
Eyes closed during violations of his minds home...

Tryna set my devils free
all though it seems without em i would not exist as me
Hands in the air like im looking for the savior
my chains are invisible affecting my behavior
Eating very little as it hasn't been my nature
struggling to find a better suiting nomenclature..

Our branches intertwined
My roots had touched with yours
Your leaves were oh so fresh
Your skin textured so course
The birds that grace your limbs
Are gorgeous as the source;
Of all my love..
Above the dirt a seed
Had fallen rightly placed
Beside me as i grew
Adjacent from your face
You rose taller than i
I caught up shortly after
Our minds now in the sky
Together watching planes
As all of them flow by..Oh my..
Why have you fallen down
With knowledge so profound
I cannot see the ground
I do not hear a sound
Or feel your lovely presence
I long to love you so
To be one with your essence..

I remember when the grass and trees had all showed me their face..
the moon had snarled as if it came from some far away edo place.
I adored it
Nature i explored it
Finding that the soul of everything had been distorted...
By man,
his hungry calloced hands.
Raking in the money...
Breaking in the land.
Smacking mother nature,
her kids forced to disband.
I wish i could've saved them
I wish i had the chance..

Open like the ocean,
I let you walk inside..
You didn't wipe your feet,
and left stains on my pride..

Heat dwelled in her eyes
It only came out when
She left him all alone
And stopped playing pretend

Is it selfish of my soul to wanna die
throwing every issue
My family behind
im fine
No really
i swear ill be ok
Basking in the heat
as the sun rules the day