Lets be honest, it has its' up's and down's
Irrate people all around
Fighting fiercly against time
End all suffering for a dime

This pain I feel is deep...
It's like the tallest mountain steep...
This coldness is taking my breath...
I'm shivering down to my soul...
This heavy feeling is called grief...
Is this what you felt long ago...
I miss the warmth you provided...
Is this what it feels like to be gone...
I'm nothing without you...

“Are you proud of me..”
“More than you would ever know.”
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It was all a dream about you.
Woke up crying
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“I’m here for you.”
“Thanks.”

The new year rings in my ear.
Its the start of something new.
Something so fresh that comes from you.
Spread positivity and love.
For the day starts and ends with you.
On this day we begin anew.

Trapped in this box is what I am...
Surrounded by darkness...
Not even corners can hide their shadows...

I'm finally free.
It feels good.
My heart no longer hurts when I think of you.
My mind is no longer at war with my words.
I've finally sailed to the eye of the storm.
I'm calm and collected.
I thought you would be happy.

People stand over me and tell me to wake up...
I feel when they grab my hand...
It drains me to know that I can't grab theirs back...
I lay there and just dream endless dreams...
I hear their voices and its soothes me...
I hear their cries and it makes me sad...
I open my eyes for the first time...
"He-Hello" escapes my mouth...

I want our bodies entwined with one another.
Our heart beats in sync.
Locked eyes with each other’s.
Soul against soul.
Eat from the forbidden fruit again.
Make me do crazy things for you.
Keep my lust high.
Keep my mind going and wandering.

I'm high off your love.
I'm high off your ecstasy.
You make my heart dance.
To the point of no return.
I've never felt this before.
It's like a thousand suns.
You got me shining.
Just like my elementary trophy.
I never wanna be sober.
When you produce my high.

Your mind is a warzone.
Your soul fights for you.
It sends the strongest thing to battle the mind.
Remember to focus.
For you are not weak.
You are strong.
You will come home (soul)dier.

If you invited me would you tell your friends?
Would you tell them it was pretend?
Will I be one of those skeletons you hide in the closet?
Do they know you wanted this?
Do I play into your fantasy?
Do you and I sneak off into the night under the moon?
So we can look into each other’s eyes and fall in love again?
Or is that just the fantasy part you were after?
This is a cruel game you play.
But it takes two to play and I'm in.

I’m at that
Moment where
Death seems right
And living is suffering

I've written poems for people who've just thrown them away.
I've written poems when I was going through hard times.
I've written poems when there was nothing else to do.
I've written poems that have gone past peoples heads.
I've written poems that have not been good.
I've written and written and written.
When will it be my turn?

I would go to hell and back for that love again.
I would go to hell and back for that peace that I once had.
I would go back to that mind set that I had when I had you.
That love means a whole lot when it's genuine.
Now I am back to being lonely with no love.
Your name stains my teeth.
It leaves a foul taste on my lips.
But that love was to bliss to not conquer.
Only if it was for a brief time.
Every king needs to fall at least once.

Love was the game.
I got finessed.
Followed my heart.
'Til I realized it was too late.

You got me like I got you.
I never see myself with another person.
Just bring your love and I’ll bring mine.
Let’s go for the high miles.
We’ll make our own mingle high club.
Test the reigns of our relationship.
Build our mental health back to what it was.
You got me like I got you.
Now let’s set the table for two.
Wine for the both of us.
Trust in before us.

It's funny that timing is everything.
Who's to say this isn't the first time.
We've probably met in many different lifetimes.
I've probably searched all my life for you.
What others told me was a waste of time I ignored them.
The only time I had was to find you.
I searched far and wide.
I was in many different regions.
My love for the search was endless.
I'd hop dimensions just to see you once again.
Not only this lifetime but in others.
What else is there to you but a mystery.
How do I know that you'll take me.
I've seen myself many times but I'm never with you.
How many times do I have to travel to just see you once.
There's a possibility that in one time you're mine.
Until I find that one spot where you're at.
I'll keep searching until I fall over and wither away.
When I see my God I'll beg to send me back just to look for you.
And see what really lies beneath that mystery.
Until then, this journey is still on schedule.

People say that time is relevant...
How can we go by time when we move on our own...?
Everything consists of time from the moment we're born...
We are always moving forward but yet the system we're in is moving backwards...
Today is going to be tomorrow and yesterday is going to be today...
Does that really matter when all we have is darkness around us...?
Are we really afraid of the dark or are we just scared to be alone...?
Can you look up at the stars and gaze ever so gently and realize that the light is old...?
They say light travels fast but not fast enough to escape that dark abyss called a "black hole"...
Do we really know what happens when we are trapped for eternity...?
Does time really stop like they say it does...?
There is only one way to find out by going through my mind and taking this path...
Let the stars in my mind guide you so you don't stray from this path...
Stray from this path and you fall off this course called life...
The abyss calls your name from my soul so just take that leap...
Do you really love me like you say you do...?
Are you willing to give your heart for mine...?
I'm willing to do anything for you...
I see stars when I look in your eyes...
They guide my soul towards your soul and I'm rejuvenated...
It makes me feel younger again...
There are always this little things that bring me down but you're always there to catch me...
I love you for that...
Don't make me regret this feeling...
I chose you...
Please stay with me until the end of all this...

What are we going to do?
We aren’t meant for each other but yet we stick together like glue.
I peel off this layer and somehow it comes back later.
People scream at me and tell me we’re no good for each other but you know I’m tougher.
I can take the hits.
That’s when I just wanna disappear into the mist.
Going away hopefully I’ll be missed.
Now all I want is one more kiss.
To tell the tale how we separated.
Yet dead men can’t talk.
Especially if he’s in the Dead Sea.

Always follow what your heart desires
It shouldn't matter what other people think
Your heart is all that matters to you
Put it through pain and suffering causes
Immense damage on yourself
Resulting in other ways of pain is useless
You can only cause pain to yourself if you
Let it happen
Push the negative aside and ride
With the flow the air has provided you with
The air will always guide you toward correction
Think of the air as "faith" or "destiny"
If it's meant to be it will happen
If not then the air will steer you correct
Follow your heart and not your thoughts

The past stays the past.
There is no future with something from the past.
It didn’t work out for a reason in the past.
The past is just time folding in on itself.
So whatever you’re holding onto, just let it go.
The future will not hold your past because it already happened.
That’s why it’s a memory.
Eventually memories fade.
Just like your past.
Put it to rest.
I’ll do the same with mine.

My head drifts through these clouds
Being up this high smells like rain
Looking down I see nothing but pain
Seeing my lifeless corpse on the floor
Waiting to be dovoured by the board

I'm tired of sitting here waiting.
For the day that I become someone.
When I'm already someone.
The night time sky calls to me.
I can feel the intuition of my calling.
Something that requires more of me.
I can feel it in my SOUL.
I'll reach out for it.
Just know that I will become what I want to be.
Not what other people think/want me to be.
I'll set an adventure so high that I won't come down.
The altitude I'm heading is on a different level.
I guess this is how Famous people feel.
They strive for that excellence and greatness.
I Will do so much because I am CAPABLE.
So are you!
Follow what YOU DESIRE!!
Not what other people think is good for you.
Just be TRUE and be YOU.
The only thing that stands in the way is you.
Go forth and take point to your life.
It'll be WORTH it.
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I see you at the top of these stairs. Waiting...
Hands behind your back and a smile on your face.
I try to run up the stairs but I go no where.
Every step I take it’s like there’s another to keep me from you...
I keep trying and trying but all I seem to get is further away...
So far that all I see is the silhouette of your body...
I sat on these stairs and cried...
Cried until I felt a hand on my shoulder...
It was you...
You said “Come on, it’s time to go.”
You looked at me with those honey brown eyes and smiled...
You asked “How far are you willing to go?”
I answered. “To the end of the world.”

My reality is trapped in a bottle.
I take out my glass and pour.
A shot is what I need.
Nothing more.