i miss the echo,
of your voice,
calling my name,
filling my empty heart,
with a love i never had.

if you are unsure about me,
tell me,
please.

and just like that,
we stopped talking,
as if nothing has happened,
between what was once,
us.

lost count of words,
i haven't told you yet,
for you do not listen.

i hate how weak i get,
when you're around.

i do not miss you,
i just suffocate,
every minute,
without you.

i hate how,
i keep checking my phone,
waiting for a call,
i know i won't get.

what broke me,
wasn't you,
it was me,
all along.

my unsaid words to you,
could fill a hundred paged book,
perhaps even a trilogy.

but no one once,
had what they lacked,
and for me,
that was love.

the way you call,
to see if i still get jealous,
to see if i still like you,
then run to someone else,
breaks what was once,
my heart.

i just need a sign,
a hint or a word,
confirming or denying,
your feelings,
for my heart,
cannot take it any longer.

somewhere along the lines,
of you knowing i like you,
and me knowing you like me,
we lost a couple of unsaid words.

maybe
just maybe,
if i said i loved you too that day,
things would've turned out different.

my issues with myself,
are more each day,
maybe it is a good thing,
you're away.

i miss your voice.

this feeling in my chest,
is something between,
emptiness and regret.

thank you,
for giving me closure,
not one i deserved,
but the agony woke me up,
from dreams of us,
or what could've been us.

in all honesty,
she's prettier,
bolder,
better,
than any version of me will ever be.

i really really really wish,
you would've turned out different.

i'm trying to move on,
from the fear,
of never talking to you again.

waiting for the day,
i wake up and get tired,
of reading our chats.

everytime i think i am over you,
everytime i think i have my closure,
i go through the heartbreak all over again.

if you listen closely,
every word i utter,
screams i love you,
loud and clear.

but you never listen,
you never did,
you never will.

you broke me in ways,
i never once imagined,
i'd be broken in.

you put me in situations,
i never once imagined,
myself in.

you confuse me,
you confuse my heart,
you confuse all there is to me.

when i see you,
my heart goes places,
yet i don't know,
how to act around you,
for you turn cold,
all of a sudden.

you said you'd wait for me,
because you don't want anyone else,
now that we spoke,
will you still wait?

your rejection,
cut through my heart,
like a sword.

i don't mind what you said,
just the wording,
could've been better.

my silence is killing me,
but i have to know,
how far you're willing to go,
for me,
and it appears to me,
bright and clear,
you'd do nothing.

call me silly,
but i had a little hope,
you might call,
and ask to see me,
perhaps then you'd understand,
why i'm quiet.

i'm okay,
with not having a relationship,
i'm just not okay,
with having false hopes,
of what we never were.

Haven't replied in 4 days,
Wish you would've done an effort,
To understand me.

But you didn't.

clock is ticking,
waiting for that question,
am i seeing you again or am i not.

two hearts,
each beating for one another,
yet neither,
uttering a word.

enough with puzzles,
if you feel what i feel,
please let me know.

if you do not,
let me know,
i promise i would understand.

tell me,
what we are,
i am losing my mind.

i am terrified at the thought,
of losing you,
but listen.

when i get a text from you,
my heart inaugurates once again,
every single time.

when you said you loved me,
i did not know how,
to say i have loved you for longer.

i just hope,
you're not just playing,
because a heartbreak is much worse than a loss.

two days before my birthday,
that time,
my soul returned back to my soulless body.

reading over the words,
i could not believe,
my heart started beating fast.

unable to form words,
i ruined it all,
once again.

when a heart beats for love,
the mouth will never tell,
them three words.

you are,
a world of your own,
and i love that.

each time,
i fall again,
i remind myself,
keep your head up,
we have been through worse.

you looked sad,
when you saw me cry,
you wiped my tears.

now tell me,
what would you do,
if you found out.

the tears in my eyes,
screamed your name,
loud and clear.

your eyes,
make me want to stay,
forever.

they speak to me,
in a language i understand,
do you feel it too?