do you remember
when we first shared a look
dead silence between us
didnt matter so much

we lay on the grass
looking at the stars
it seemed so cliche
but then i thought who the hell cares

im sitting down
on the mattress on the floor
gazing at my bedroom door
wondering why i exist because i think im a bore

questioning life
like i question everything else
i dig myself a deeper hole
that i cannot climb out of myself

i speak of my issues often
feeling slightly guilty inside
wondering why people dont care as much as i do
how do they dare?

but it all comes down to
my mind playing games
people that love me, show me they care
but i choose not to see it
because deep down i think
im undeserving
of the love,
the emotion,
the tender care,
the devotion,
the loving stare,
and most of all
not allowing myself to fall in love
or
be loved by someone else

woke up in the mornin
with a very bad headache

not realisin'
that there was screamin downstairs

so i rush downnn
to save mama from you

blood trickles down her nose
and i see a tear or two

you stare at me with demonns
in your eyes

like im the one that disobeyed the human rights

ill save you i said mama dont you cry
but shes a hero and she dont need savin now

said mama,
i swear to you my child
said mama,
your father has run wild
i promise you that i will keep you safe
no one will hurt you, because we are a free state

oh mama oh mama oh mama

living alone,
is a tough job to keep

constant nightmares,
of the mistakes you might have made

i crawl into her bed at night
like i used to at 5 years of age

to keep her safe
and i see her smile

she stares at me with angels
in her eyes

like im the saviour
that god has sent her
cuz

ill save you darlin she said baby dont you cry
your my hero and i dont need savin now
and i dont need savin nowwwww


said mama,
i swear to you my child
said mama,
your father has run wild
i promise you that i will keep you safe
no one will hurt you, because we are a free state

oh mama oh mama oh mama
oh mama oh mama oh mama etc etc

hey there, i saw you
how you doing, oh im okay,
i thought id tell you, i missed you
oh but sorry i moved on

IIIIIIII left
a letter in your door
and ii knowww ,
that you were out with her



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Overthinking is just empty thoughts,
empty people..
That are trying to become real things,
It's the darkness inside that is trying to get out,
To overwhelm you,
To turn you dark.

Tears are for the weak they said,
Even though they cry at night,
Light a candle and watch.it.drip.
It will happen to all your lies

Watching from the corner,
pretending to belong in there,
But its ones like I that see,
through your wall of..

standing in the corner
believing you should be there,
but its the ones like  you that see,
through the wall