Here I sit upon the grass
I look about, one moment’s pass
A fleeting peace that once takes over
Much like a kiss by one’s true lover

As I stand and look upon
The world around me under the sun
How life so simple, mediocrity
How men accept their life to be

Not I, for I cannot accept
The bland, the white, how I have wept
I do not wish to take a part
This little role dealt from the start

It is not me, I cannot be
Inconsequential, I cannot see
For I look more outside the line
And hope to gain that is not mine

Not yet, the chase I come alive
Imagination, free heart derive
Disdain at those I am surround
With pity to all who has not found

That life is not what comes to thee
But to seek that which will make you free
Of chains that leave you bound to rock
No movement, wonder I doth mock

I cannot love one who takes hold
Of only what not makes them bold
The plain is not what I achieve
No less if so, then I will grieve

Go forth, be gone, if you cannot share
The spark, adventure, compelling dare
I cannot exist to only be
Defined as mediocrity

Why, I ask, I turn to you?
At this low moment of fear and pain
To feel, perhaps that it may be true
that I can feel and know love again?

No, my heart tells me it cannot be
Tis only to wake me from my reverie

This forest of of veils that reach from the sky
I feel my way through, with no sight from my eye
So I remain blind for this is my choice
For at this moment I've no trust in my voice

Let me hide behind the stage of life
The place I hope no hate nor strife
Go away I say, and leave me be...
Don't wake me from my reverie

It is safe this place, though lacking light
Perhaps I will go to only take flight
And when I do, I know it will be
to go home where I know I can finally be free

The grass so soft here where I lay
The sun shines bright this wondrous day
I ponder upon what held me fast
To those who kept me in my past
And there you came to take my hand
To lift me up and let me stand

How gentle your words, your loving kiss
Your eyes, your touch, your love I’ll miss
But time has come for me to break
The bonds that held not for my sake
Just me alone to take my step
To cleanse the pain that I have wept

Yet without you, I’d never know
How good the things that life can show
And so I say my time has come
To let you go to share with some
That needs you now though I will stay
Within the shadow, be that as may

Forever you will hold my heart
And never shall my love do part
For you alone will remain the flame
Your happiness always be my aim
Stay as you are, for you are truth
May your care and guidance always soothe

So now it’s time for me to fly
On my own, but tis not goodbye
You are within me as I have said
I'll walk the path that you have led
So think of this as sheer success
To know that you have truly blessed
The one that writes with pen in hand
The one who loves you until the end

I love you baby...forever

Gather your arms
Your strength, your courage
The foe before you comes charging through
Pray tell, who dares to breach this wall
Built with sweat, and tears, determination
Shall no one try nor succeed to break
Integrity, honor and for all at stake
Lessons learned from painful past
of enemies who destroy en masse
There once was one who gave full trust
that those around them were of same heart
How quickly vanished the innocence
of what we're born, this purity
Now stained with blood, with wickedness
I take no more and give no less
No more, I say..no more I allow
I will not break, nor will I bow
Stand strong, here comes the hostile band
of haters and liars that we must withstand
But wait, I see a flag of surrender?
Shall he not break me forth asunder?
No fool am I, tis only a ruse
To trick and betray as the **** ensues
You will not win, not over me
That point will come when you will see
I am stronger than you....because of you
My time has come to win this war
For that is what life has become
A battle for whom the strongest will win
Not by brute strength, but by character within

I am trying so hard to please
Those I care to make at ease
But since you’ve gone, I truly tried
To smile and laugh, but yet I cried
For moments that I shared with you
The only one that loved me true

Do not be sad, as you look upon
The girl who misses you since you’ve gone
Two steps forward, and one step back
I try with might, but strength I lack
Forever you said, that we will be
How can I bear life without thee?

I know that you have sought to guide
From up above, the other side
So if I must wait till I die
To heal this pain, and curb my cry
I promise you, I’ll do my best
To find my way, and pass this test

Forgive me, love, that I am weak
The past too often, I do seek
To see your smile that made mine too
The love we shared that almost grew
To heights I’ve never thought would be
And now I know will never see

Soon, I say, that I will find
My way and leave my past behind
Till then have patience, my dearest one
I wait the day when shine the sun
In time, I dare to hope and see
What life, the future meant to be

For now, please keep your eyes on me
Until the time again I’ll see
Your truthful gaze that shone with love
When I reach heaven up above
As I write these words of woe
Your love will guide me until I know

There’s a world that’s ours
And a world that is not
How I wish to live only
In what my heart has begot
But wherever you are, or where you exist
I see clearly now, is where I have missed
I cannot see, nor feel your pain
But I can stand by you this point and again
There is no one that I wish to know
But the man that you are, the you I love so
All I can do is to stand strong beside you
In silence, with love, wherever it leads to
No words I have, it may never come
But know this, my love, you will not come undone
Your strength is your glory, and forever you shine
Integrity, before you, forbearance in mind
My eyes glazed with true adoration abundance
Long for your embrace even only for once
And so I remain, standing still, just beside
Not asking for more, though your love may subside
But forever, I say, I know with my heart
I stand with you no matter, how far we will part.

I have learned that life is not to expect
But to only watch, and feel true respect
For those who come, even briefly to me
No matter the time that I'll allow them to be
Look to them with love, and always with heart
'Cause, time will tell true how far we will part

I hope and I pray, that my strength will unfold
Through trials, and tests, when the truth will be told
I look to the heavens, and hope I will see
That no matter what happens, that I will always love me
For that is what's truth, to know who you are
That love begins here, not there nor far

The lessons I've learned I know continue
Each moment passes, with all that comes through
Don't worry for me, I am made of hard steel
Though you see someone weak, as my heart doth reel
Just allow me my grief, my laughter deceitful
My attempt to survive this world that proves cruel

Don't judge me on this, these words that so flow
I'm not who I seem, this me I don't know
I try to believe with this weight in my heart
And try to forget the reason we'd part
Don't judge me with words that only brings pain
For I try with my might, so I may live life again

The moment I write these words that come through
I only seek to find reason, and learn what is true
Sometimes I will fail, like this time I feel lost
So cold this chill as if I have turned into frost
Allow me this time, so I can heal this pain
No comfort, nor words, so I ask you refrain

Do not try to change me, for I see will not be
To become this person, that I wanted to see
To stand strong and become the guiding light
For those who have fallen, I've tried to do right
But now I see that the one need to heal
Is me, the one, that has never shown real

How wrong I have been to seek outside
To show them my heart, what is broken inside
Tis only me that can heal my pain
Forgive me, my friends, I've fallen again
No wish I have to be such a burden
I will no longer ask, for this I am certain

Thank you all, you have shown me how
To be a good person, though my turn is now
To be the one that can only break free
From bonds that have choked I so clearly see
I beg you, no anger, this is my way
My sins have been deep, now my time to pay