many important messages unsaid
deep in the soul of my heart keep
sentiments that are so beautiful
yearning to be expressed to her

you see, my mom and I are not close
I know in my heart this is my loss
wishing every moment I can express
but I was born like this to care less

I saw everything in my own eyes
like watching field full of butterflies
in her walk she make my father smile
my siblings, she comforts them don’t cry

how she faced, embraced problems with smile
with grace she knows if you tell a lie
how I envy my friends relations
to their mother, they express in passion

writing this make me wonder and dream
that myself came out to the door clean
a change person who express his feelings
walking, running, talking and breathing

now I show to my mom how I feel
this message, this words, that are so real
I’ll weary the words “I love you Mom”
unexpected event she is gone

I cried and cried and cried this is hard
this emotions, this love stings so bad
message untold makes my soul unclean
suddenly I woke up, it’s just a dream

Is there good in fading goodbye
Left me crying in the rain, why
Hours walks slowly to empty days
More odd weeks starts to passed away
Staring snows on the window pane
White cold will take away the pain
Listening to the playlist you’ve made
To the nostalgic picture you’ve take
Your sweet smile in my worried head
I hope I’m sleeping like the dead
How I love you so much it hurts
How my deep trembling heart would burst
My cold heart slept but did not sleep,
Live but did not live in a way,
Gently humming, gently vibrating
Softly flowing lifeblood in the center
I don’t know what to do anymore
A vague stirrings of unease to me
Lawns are empty, the trees empty,
The street empty and my heart empty
I don’t know if I miss you anymore
What it’s like to miss you anymore
I can't do this anymore
Hope to never say goodbye again