my vines will grow and cover it all
im 17
and i am at the edge of an undefined unrest
i still don't know what i want in life
i want to become something...... i think?
or i want to completely be nothing,,, run somewhere far away
maybe?
or walk into belligerent traffic
maybe i just want to create
but anything i touch is only reserved for me
my existence is a place where only i can access it
my love so small it spills only within the crevices of the earth
and only there --i can be found
i don't know anything in this world but this moment
i don't know anything but what i feel inside right now
and right now i am unknowable!
entering senior year! wow! i dream to vanish! not to die, maybe? but really,,, i don't desire death, just nonexistence... at least 5 minutes??? idkkkk!! i just don't feel real :3333