I want to walk through a field of sunflowers
light up my world while
run away
making a better change
the wind is playing with my hair
ready to climb up a tree and stare
let my screams be heard
sunset kicking me to the best side of the curb
sunflowers making me smile
can I just live here for a while?
stars hitting the field just right
mountain view i missed you
whats home?
will someone tell me?
doesn't matter I is lonely
but i've got my sunflowers
a few yards away there is another field of wishies
time to make a few and star gaze

you are all but poison flowing through my veins
cripplingly sweet, oh honey is brought to shame
a needle gleefully I stab myself with daily
a agonizing slow demise a choice I take greatly  
over a bleak existence without you.

master gardener
pruning each garden heirloom
till ripe for picking

Hanging like a scapular,
your memory haunts my dreams

You clothe my thoughts in joyous warmth,
my lonely voice to scream…

“I live inside your shadowed love,
afraid new suns will shine

“The darkness my heart yearns to keep,
all new light—minus thine”

(Dreamsleep: March, 2020)