i fell in love with the way your eyes stared at my imperfections and how you told me they reminded you of your favorite place to be

i would say that it hurt when you tried to hold me again
but the pain from my wounds are numb

i prayed for the first time in awhile yesterday.

i prayed to God that He would take away my sadness and sorrow and give me something to smile about rather than to cry. i begged Him to show me my way; to help.

i cried again today, but this time i cried out of happiness.
my heart finally doesn’t hurt.

i prayed for Him to let me be happy and now i am.

he held his eyes open during the night to listen to each word she could possibly say

he awoke early to hear her voice before another person had the chance

he did all things in his power to retain her happiness

and she over looked it

now he can go hours without speaking

while she can weep for days

. . .

your voice makes every lost feeling
find a place

he can remind me everyday of how he loves me more than himself and
how he would give me his last breath to breathe if he had to

and i would still doubt that there is someone who will never leave,
i am so sorry that i have never trusted love

we show more attention to the people would can go days without asking us how we are, why?

we strive for their acceptance, for their love.

it’s questionable; the lengths an individual would go for love.

she walks through the halls with a smile

she even speaks with ease

but her remains still shake at the sound of your name

i am so sorry i am not strong enough for you

i miss you.

these words roll off my tongue like the wind whispers in the winter night. these words would be the last breath that i allowed my empty soul to take in. these words feel the old presence of your fingers next to mine. these few words bring back the memories of lovely nights that can never be forgotten. these words run through the walls of every room i enter to only come back to my body to realize you aren’t returning.

i miss you.

these everlasting words of hope engage my body in the wants of us being together. these words only give me the idea of what could have been that we will never know. these empty words have been spoken so often from my dry mouth that they have lost forever meaning. these words are wonderful yet they have been given such a dark feeling. the idea of enjoying an individuals life so much that you greatly miss them is such a compliment yet so many people look at these words with no hope in ever seeing them again.

miss them so you can see them again

do not allow yourself to miss them because you have lost interest in pursuing

i wish you could catch a glimpse of your beauty that i strive to stare at each day

sharpen your blade to my heart
**** me with your love

1:25 AM and i can still feel your breath on my shoulder when you would beg me to stay

the scars on my body make me hate everything about myself

but they remind me that i once felt something

the day that you finally left was
the day that my heart slowly stopped beating
and my hands started shaking

the air appears thick with each step forward.
her hands are damp with the memories her mind evokes her body of.
the atmosphere becomes dark from the tears flooding her soul.
her eyes grow still with the dreams her core possesses.

“nevertheless; you are bound to regain strength”

oh, her lovely face began to share a beautiful, counterfeit grin with each creature onward,
only permitting individuals to notice her pleased.

he makes me feel like I'm running to the subway with only a minute to spare and I can't tell whether I make it in time or not

emotions can overwhelm an individual until their own minds are lost

It's 1:24 AM and I still remember you telling me we would last forever

i wonder if they notice that i can't breathe when they mention your name

I can’t describe the pain I feel

So I write it down for all to hear

And I can’t help but admit it’s true

That I’m losing my mind over you

the unspoken pain streams down her face in the most beautiful way

you don’t just make her cry and hurt inside,

you make her scream at the pain of her own hands.

your demons drive an interest in my soul
i crave more of you

letting go is the hardest part

she tries to ease her mind of your memories with showers
but the water always runs cold before she's finished crying

let me be your last phone call before you leave
let me be that last memory

i miss the way your lips made my body still

tell me who broke you but don't say my name too loud

I've heard that sitting in silence is peaceful and relaxing.

All I can hear are her screams of regret.

and the saddest part is that i still listen to one of your voicemails that i saved from months ago because that was the last time your voice ever begged for my love

i stopped peeking my head around the corner to check the time when you no longer told me how much i meant to you

i need you to need me

The winds remind me how cold I've been without you

do you ever crave someone's presence?

Sometimes I drive fast
to feel what it's like
to be alive again

I ruin everything I love

dead flowers and they smell like you

everything was such a beautiful lie and I never had the courage to hear the truth being screamed in my face

Loving you is like watching my own blood run down my arms and screaming 'it doesn't hurt'