someone
pull
the blinds
drawn

it’s
getting
dark
again

we used to draw sharks
on our living room floor,
and run away laughing
when it was time to clean up.

we’d sit at the curb
a block away from home,
consuming junk food and stories
no one will ever know of.

u were the baby of the family,
a constant reminder that i had to grow.
and ur name even came from me,
a responsibility i will always adore.

i’m sorry if life has failed u,
i can’t help the regrets that come rushing in, knowing in my heart that i tried,
but u just weren’t mine to save.

i wish we could stay in the past forever
ur hand in mine as we crossed the road,
i wish the innocence stayed in ur eyes longer,
but now it’s time i let u grow.

today i was granted
this sense of solace
that maybe
in some other world
fate wasn't as cruel
to the both of us

that maybe
somewhere out there
existing freely
in the unknown
is a version of you and i
who ended up making it.

i’ve been called
every word
but never
lovely

in sleepless nights
i dream of u
wide awake.

there’s an
impostor
in the mirror
and she has
my smile.