Bored and lazy,
I lay my head down.
My eyes are closed,
Daydreaming.

I do not want
To do a thing,
A side effect
Of using.

I need a
Substance
Just to care,
Even when
I'm losing.

I'm thoughtless
When I'm sober,
Indifferent to
Refusing.

Learn from my
Mistakes;
Don't learn
By doing.

I wish I
Wasn't ruined.

Like water
We converge
Into oceans.

But first,
We diverge
Into rain.

And rain
Flows down.
It makes its way.

Don't fight
What can't
Be changed.

Don't give in
To the madness
Of contradiction.

An open mind,
Reflecting,
Isn't dazed.

Just go
And meet
The ocean

Where you
Unite with
Vastness.




.

I don't know why,
But no one likes me,
And it pains me.
I think I'm wrong
In so many ways.

If I give up,
It'll stop hurting.
My lesson in life
Is learning
To numb the pain.

I'm running on empty,
Searching aimlessly;
My mind is in a daze.

My soul is longing
For what is gone,
And now a thick fog
Pervades.

Under dark clouds
Rain falls and thunder cracks.
Life feels serious and eerie.
It's intoxicating.

Accepting my mortality,
I'm sinking into nothingness.
The gravity of my decision
Is significant.

In death we realize
The totality of destiny.
What awaits us or forsakes us
After life we can't predict.

Maybe actions play no part.
Guilty of destruction or
Responsible for loving,
Might we get what we deserve?

flames of faith burn bright
faith destroyed my life
still I have a little, but
when all the stars align
I won't start a forest fire
the flames of faith burn bright
I contain them with my skepticism

A pretty girl peaks a guy's interest.
They talk a bit but she won't give in.
To her, he's a mystery to question.
Is he greater or less than expected?

He wishes he could remain that way,
filling in blanks with what she wants.
If he knew luxury is what she desires,
he'd try to stay a mystery or be a liar.

He might take her to the Ritz
and tell her he's rich.
In reality, he's no such thing,
but he dreams.

I'm on autopilot like
A puppet, animated

My thoughts aren't mine;
They're scripted like a movie

Perspectives, manufactured,
Change like contact lenses

Well-designed dilemmas may
Deceive my understanding

Someone waters seeds of reason,
Growing steadfast trust

They fake sound logic, wanting
Their beliefs to form, unheeded

The more love's evaded,
The more it chases.
But, when followed,
Love races away,
So just resist it.
It will fade.

Thinking you'd trust
The only one who listens,
You told me some things
I didn't want to know.

Digesting the ugly
Secrets you confessed
Kept me frozen
In awkward silence,
Shocked.

my day has come
the peak of my life
it feels like peace
and euphoria

i love myself
ive fallen in love
im never lonely
alone or not

I'm a king of brave men who face the fray with backs against the sea.
They don't retreat; they have no choice but to fight until they're free.
Faced with death, they fight with twice the might I've ever seen.
A war turns men into beasts when brothers see each other bleed.

The young prince I oppose is sure his men will not be wasted, facing us.
Still, I look forward to their last words, whispered as dying moments pass.
I hope I'm exposed once he deciphers just one lie my spies have spread.
He thinks his plan's so advanced that he'll live more than a month.

I admire that man because we both bear similar burdens.
Him and I will continue to fight until the day we are put to rest.
I don't expect to die but I'm prepared; I have no fear left to hurt me.
Fear felt so wrong in the past, but now it tickles me, and I laugh.

The enemy is sure that we want blood today, so they hesitate.
We chant to beats like madmen; drums roll and sound like havoc.
I can only imagine what the evil army we face is feeling.
We chant like ghouls in a graveyard, and demons fear us.

I've spent time learning the mind of their belligerent prince -
A skilled strategist and a difficult target to hit like a prize to be won.
A commander knows which battles to fight and which ones to avoid.
I've disciplined my army into order; now it waits to strike them.

The selfish mercenaries of the opposition are heathens.
Enemies might still stand after arrows land but not long after then.
Their army will fall when sharp blades of our swords demand.
We will own riches and grow wealth once we've conquered land;

May your blade swiftly cut men down, but do show mercy.
Let your conquests die with their freedom, or spare them as slaves.

I had an epiphany in reverie

A time like that is when

You need to be quiet

Words will dilute it

Words screamed at me

There was so much meaning

That was the moment

When something was so special

That, if I dared describe it,

It would have vanished

The time when

Words were superfluous

But, oh, it was so special

I wish you knew it

Not special
Average every way
Can't accept it
Learn a lesson
My gift
Ignoring I'm the same

Unreal
Grandiosity
Festers like a plague
Big dreams I can't say
Are insane and I'm ashamed

Humble me
Sink it in
Not smart
Average
IQ of 100
Most mid

It's odd that I love my life like this.
Reality's taste has hints of hell;
I stand the smell by ignoring it.
I swear that life isn't what it seems.

To stop the pain, I can give up hope.
I'll let myself wait for what won't start.
I feel alive, dreaming ways will part.
Right now, I am numb to ev'ry thing.

This life tries to break my naive heart.
Too far, it's not near enough to sting.
I recognize when I hear a buzz.
Relaxed, I just let it do its thing.

I've heard that love is sweet poison that leaves you hungry and leads you blind.

I've heard that love is war. It ends the peace and makes the heart fight for more.

The love I have feels dangerous; uncertainty seems routine, not dire.

You can put up with abuse and drive love away or avoid it all and fan the fire.

Your love might be in peril; your dear one's feelings are difficult to gauge.

You try to get a read on their elusive character, but there's an opaque haze around their aura.

The less they say, the less you know of them, the more of what you hope for is expected.

What do you wish to hear? Do you want to know what's true? What have you assumed?

Cognitive dissonance grows as unrealistic beliefs are never realized.

Lovers idolize their beloveds, but, inevitably, reality hits and their true colors show.

No, there is no such thing as nothingness
'Cause even voids of space are filled with light.
The fear of falling into an abyss,
Alone in deep darkness, offends my mind.

Without the light, there are no eyes to see.
No one with whom to share your pain and joy.
A gaze shines out toward us; we feel its heat.
It’s gleaning glare you never can avoid.

There’s light even in dark places you go.
All things are luminescent to degrees,
So always know that you are not alone.
Nothing can be devoid of energy.

There’s no such thing as emptiness at all.
Relax because there is no space to fall.

nostalgia screams
of the summer fling
we had as teens

i was short
and you were taller
we looked awkward

i reminisce of the
hot day at the pool
when you went to raid
your family's fridge
and brought me a
tub of ice cream

you forgot to bring a spoon
                                                    
you struck a chord and
i became a fool for you

we were young and
our love was sweeter
than dessert

before us,
i felt neglected

you blessed me
by caring

you were good to me

you gave me
memories to cherish

love sounds nice
i assume it has a price
it is not unconditional
people might say so
but they don't know

people only care what
the outside looks like
eyes that are blind to
the beauty inside you
are out of luck

your hands ran through my buzzed hair
then reached into my cheap shirt
caressing muscles honed in jail

like a kitten, i could have purred

i loved the girl who gave pain
exchanged for love that's now hate

you were selfish and so toxic
you broke my heart and let it rot

You'll realize all the good times unforeseen.
If you don't want to live then you can dream.
Just go to sleep till you think sensibly.
Endure so we can hold you in esteem.

We're means to ends; we serve our purposes.
But ends are means, too, in and of themselves.
We aim to make sense of this life but miss
The reason why we live; why we're compelled.

Uncertainty hits hard right in the heart.
You'll find a place where truth is unconcealed.
You don't feel whole but life is just a part -
Just part of what you'll face before you're healed.

You're just one reason living is a gift.
Good reasons have a reason to exist.