you were the reason I didn't **** myself

this doesn't mean you have to love me

what it means is, I will always love you

SOME PEOPLE COME INTO
YOUR LIFE AND LEAVE
WITHOUT MAKING A DIFFERENCE.
BUT YOU, OH YOU AND YOUR
DIMPLES SMILE LEFT AN
IMPRINT ON MY BLACKENED
SOUL. EVEN IF YOU LEAVE,
I WILL REMEMBER EACH AND
EVERY CONVERSATION WE HAD.
I WILL LOOK BACK AT THEM
AND SMILE. BECAUSE THAT'S
WHAT YOU DO BEST,
MAKING ME SMILE.
WHETHER YOU ARE HERE
OR NOT

and finally, one day i found the courage
to tell him what i was doing to myself.
how i would etch his name into my skin
on those lonely nights i hadn't seen your face,
how i took up smoking to fill that gap in my heart
that my ex lover took with him last year,
and i told him about the things, deep dark inside
about how i barely ate anything this month
and how i wished to die.

and all he did was shake his head and sigh saying,
" but you're too happy to want to end your life".

You were drawn to me
because I was a writer.
You didn't understand
that I write well
simply because I lie well.
Such is the art of storytelling.
I'm honestly sorry you had
to realize that
The hard way.