an epidemic
of ghastly proportions

it is the plague
of this era

my sister
will not
shut
up.

unholy
women
bear
unworthy
children

i gave him every last thing that i had
and i never got an ounce of it back.

i used to think i was worthless without you
and sometimes it still feels that way
but ive learned to have love for myself
and it gets easier every day

It's that moment, on a road trip
When all the snacks have been eaten
And there is nothing but time ahead of you.

And there's music over the radio,
Taking turns playing our favorite songs
Our laughter melding with melody
As the sun begins to set.
And the warmth of that sun
Blends into the warmth in my chest

And I look

I look at him

and he glows with golden light.

And time slows down,
Every detail, in perfect clarity
Every second stretching into a lifetime
And my heart beats with so much love.
So much warmth and joy and hope.
And I look at him,

And he is beautiful.

And everything just feels right.

And I know it'll all be okay.

i spent too much time
looking out the window
never seeing through
the other side of the pane

you all spent so long
looking in at me through a window
never seeing through
my side of the pain

i plant
rose and sage
lavender and mint
poison ivy and nettle
i love my plants
but there are pests
in every garden

you just have to know how to get rid of them

because
i dont know
because i like her
she makes me smile
and shut up

empty
staring
lifeless eyes
motionless
plastic
full of lies

i have discovered
after 16 years of life
i have been missing out
on the flavor orange.
i dont really like the color
but like, orange tic tacs?
they vibe.

back
and forth
on my little swing
of happy
and sad
of love
and fear
of hope
and rage
it's getting old
and i'm getting
dizzy, sick
once again

i have nothing to say
right now, today
which is strange
because typically,
i never shut up

but today feels just...
i dont know
it feels like it should be quiet
it feels like today
we deserve some silence.

happy colors
pretty pictures
am i bleeding
or just having fun?

i would like to let you know
that at one point in life
i had something to say
but these days it seems
all of those important things
are just so far away

~
oh stars, how do you shine
on a night like tonight?
oh moon, you coward soul,
why do you hide?
~
sleep evades us,
we midnight thinkers
we conscious dreamers
us poets of the night
~
we that drag ourselves
to and fro
under the sun
we that welcome
miss midnight
and her quiet humdrum
~
we that smile
under the cool moon
under the burning stars
and cry out
hello, midnight!
~

i guess it's just how the world works
can two volatile, withering souls
ever come together
and not end in an explosion?

im sick enough as is
i cant ******* handle
being sick of you too.

look at all of us
high out of our minds
on pills and smoke and
hearts intertwined