Darkness rises,
as my will begins to fade.

Poison seeps in,
as my thoughts begin to cave.

Cruelty blooms,
as my words become like weapons

I am a force
to be reckoned with.

Sugar and spice
has become
Hellish and violence.

The girl I once was
is the girl I am
No Longer

That moment when you are sitting in your brothers room
Sitting on his bed and crying your heart out
Because you miss him so freaking much
and you know you're about to lose him.

He's slipping through your fingers
and you don't know how to stop it.

When all you want to do is just hold on to him
just a little more tightly
not wanting to let him go

But you know you have to let him go
or risk losing him forever

But you just want to cling to him
To keep him close to you
But he's clawing at your fingers
slipping through them like water

How do you let him go
but still hold on to him?

it has been ten months three weeks
and five days   since   the last time i
spoke words that  were meant only
for your ears and i   am doing okay.

Tick-Tock*
Time, you're slipping away

Tick-Tock
Don't go, please stay.

Tick-Tock
I thought You would be true

Tick-Tock
Don't you know all the **** you've put me through?

We all hide behind a mask,
the one we want everyone to see,
While the real us is fading,
decaying within the stone walls we create.

What happens when that's not enough?
The real us wants to spread its wings,
It's banging on those walls with a sledgehammer
Cracks are starting to show in that carefully constructed mask.


When that mask finally shatters
Will you be able to recognize yourself?