He stays near, watching me panic
I cannot pull my threads together
And so I unravel faster than a ball of yarn versus a kitten
My heart providing the thundering beat to this episode
Where panic grips my throat until my saliva chokes me
I sweat profusely, batting the demons he cannot see

I want to hide,
Somewhere tragedy can't find me
Somewhere I am free without responsibility
Where mental illness isn't draining
When I still have hope remaining
When every breath comes out with ease
This I am begging you please,
Just take me, I need time
To learn to breathe again

My heart is breaking with the pressure
This tragedy might just be the end of me
It is pitch black within this tunnel
The unlined clouds hold only rain
So now all I can ask is your forgiveness
If I succumb to the pain

Cancer laughs, ha ha ha
Well you entitled *****, I do not find it funny
Stop attacking my family
Why are we so interesting to you anyway?

I wish I could get my hands on you cancer,
Punch you once for all the pain you cause
Once, for the people you've ripped apart
Once, for the broken hearts left in your wake
Once, for the teardrops all cried in your name
Once, for all the things you take,
Like hope... happiness... sanity
Once, for the way you enjoy weaving yourself around peoples bodies
Making yourself at home... even though you were only meant to be a temporary guest
Who should have left once the chemotherapy started to work... or the radiotherapy kicked in
But it didn't did it?
And so I will hurt you until you are a painful mess...
And then cancer, I will strangle you....
Just like you do to others

Anxiety whispers in my ear,
I tell it to go away, not right now, I don't have time
Please... just go for now and come back later

But those words made it scared, scared we aren't so close anymore
It trembled at the thought, I may not want it
Hurt by the fact, I have little time to spare

Its anxiety gave me anxiety,
I feel like the queen of nausea
When I open my mouth, I don't know what could come out
I shake, get dizzy, cry, scream
Anxiety what have you done to me,
Please, I love you, remember?
We are going to be best friends, for now...
And well... forever

Sweet angel of mine,
With your love divine
Please won't you just hold me
Until the end of time