And I hate to say I love you
When it's so hard for me
And I hate to say I want you
When you make it so clear
You don't want me

I'd never ask you 'cause deep down I'm certain I know what you'd say
You'd say, "I'm sorry, believe me, I love you but not in that way."

And I hate to say I need you
I'm so reliant
I'm so dependent
I'm such a fool

When you're not there,
I find myself singing the blues.
Can't bear,
Can't face the truth

You will never know that feeling
You will never see through these eyes

I'd never ask you 'cause deep down I'm certain I know what you'd say
You'd say, "I'm sorry, believe me, I love you but not in that way."

You'd say, "I'm sorry, believe me, I love you but not in that way."

Teach yourself to let emotions
pour loudly and unapologetically out of your mouth.

Learn to decipher the intentions of your peers
and learn to by pass all those who cannot handle your full extent.

Throw up your words and worries all over my lap
until you are left with nothing but an empty brain
and a quivering body sprawled out on my floor.

Spill the ideas of someone else’s existence
all over my new shirt
and don’t even offer to clean it.  

Fallen face first into a puddle of your word *****
with a *** and coke stained blouse
I will clean it up  for you anyways

Mistaken silence for criticism

Absentee opinions accompanied by a faulty mouth
I hang in the silence in noose of other peoples needs.

I wanted to be special in the eyes of someone else
I played the body of her, while you imagined her face on mine until you realized

I am not her
Will not be her
Cannot be imagined as such.

For this I cried
and for that I feel empty.

You aren't worth my words