Addicted to this life
and all of its decadence
There's a table in the back
for otherworldly spies
where they drown you in powder
leave you choking on agents
that will destroy your mind
so they can apply thumbprints to retinas
leaving you in dispose
denying every lie you've ever told.
The truth will find an outlet in your demise
What you thought was real
What you thought you could feel
A confusion of senses
distilled through holy water
Blinded by strobe lights
and immobilized by birth rights
You may leave when you want,
but, then again,
would you really want to?

Living a life of last resorts
Taking the roads where signs mislead
Where there is darkness in these streets
We've found a light in you.
Over the weathered bridges
to barren landscapes
Where allies are paranoid and betray
in the territories of the kitchen.
Morals are more black than white,
but no one realizes how pink
we all are on the inside.
And I wonder how did someone so pure
end up so blue?
Its the nature of the environment.
A parable of cruel intent.

Its hard care for you
when you belong to another.
How many times can i point out
the inconsistencies in the lies that
bind you here and recall
like a boomerang?
How long will you color the wound
that he paints you with frequently?
How many bottles can you dominate
until your pain gets drowned away?
That little machine in your chest
can only takes so much stress
until it malfunctions.
Here I wait up all night for you
for the nightmares to be through.
So guarded for countless hours,
but no one can see your tears in the showers.
Anger spills over at everyone
as you try to keep me at arms length
every time we embrace
at the baggage claim.
Be it as it may
I'm not sure if I still love you,
but ****** I'm trying.

Here I am,
slouched in my arm chair
puffing a cigar
as the flames dance
in the fireplace.
Therein you appear
slowly crawling your way
over to me.
Your hand gently
places itself upon my knee,
the other gripping my shirt,
pulling yourself closer to my face,
bringing those firm commanding eyes,
in sync .
With a quivering breath,
we kiss, yet, only briefly
before I pick you up
and toss you back into the embers
where I am soon to follow.

Up here, I'm soaring so far above the city,
but it's too hard to come down if the Devil's here,
sitting,
unbuttoning her dress,
speaking so coyly.
I'm under duress,
how could I be this weak in the knees?
She don't speak sweet nothings,
they're quite distinguished, really.
Could you backstroke your way
out to sea?  
Because I'm not sure how much longer
I can wade in the water up here.
Jesus, I'm afraid of heights,
and her charm, I am not immune.
**** sure she's got me.

The Big Bad Wolf
would hang his head in shame
if he knew what I could do to you.
Elevators creak at the weight
of decisions you'd have to make.
Maybe I lit a fire
just so you'd put it out.
I hope you don't waste water
on these insignificant bridges.
The fact you hate me,
is enough to know you care.
To know every inch of you body
I learned with every caress
The smell of your breath,
the tenderness of you *******.
And i ate you whole, every time.
Animals we are, two of a kind.
You know, you're a liar too,
you're not as frail as you seem.
Even when I hurt you, I couldn't **** a dream,
so i dreamt it for you, wholesale.
I know where you keep the garlic.
Words like silver bullets.
But not enough words for an arms race.
Its written all over your face.
No I didn't take your dignity,
you gave it to me willingly.
So here i am alone in the cold,
throwing bricks at your window.
Come outside where you can get a hit.
So i stole your heart,
what will you do about it?

******* I'm plowing through
these problems, one after another.
A hotel to patrons in distress
with a will that threatens to smother.
I couldn't keep track of my girl,
or maybe i would't bother,
says her rational for leaving
for another.
You'd never hear screaming,
like how my wallet howls in pain.
Like throwing ice into lava
Bills leave me so drained.
Praying to someone that i don't get sick
because I know they'll take all of it.
Too smart to know I'll never strike it rich,
don't pay idiot taxes
before I do,
I'll burn down my home with matches.
Keep breathing, hold out for today
Eat something, Beg someone
to save me from living this way.
So I hang on to the rope I was going to swing from
because I cant afford to let go
of what i have left, somehow
deep, deep down there's hope.
What must I become to escape?
Working that bottom bracket
left my whole existence agape
to the will to ****.
Until i bide my time, upending this deflation,
defying the volition of the universe to be,
I'll board the train to Desperation Station,
where the population is just Me.