I want to write poems like scented candles
and turn the entire room into something else
I want to be able to move you to tears
just by what i'm saying

I want to describe a flower in a way you can see it
and smell or touch it if you please
I want you to be able to read your misery or heart desires
into the words about mine

I want to fill you with my emotions
Be happy, be sad, think that the world's incredible!
Wonder about my life for a while
And never stop reading my words

our time together was short
and maybe not even real
and now you're gone

But you were my best friend
those few weeks we had together
you were a shoulder i could cry on

Our time together is fading
already just a memory
but always real to me

I was diagnosed with depression today
apperently doctors lie too
and it's not too hard to make them do that

I was diagnosed with depression today
allready i'm reshaping those words
turning them into something i will not believe, but use

I was diagnosed with depression today
So now, everything is not my fault
I hold my diagnose up like a shield
now find someone else, to blame

i just have to believe what you say, stranger
because your words are all i've got

i just have to believe your name
though there were no results in facebook or google

i'm just believing that you like me
and that you really would analyse my handwriting
and that you live in the place you're living

but i will never know
if you'll come online
again

i'm a leaf
and my tree left me
some months ago
or: he set me free

there was
a lot of wind
so i'm taking my time
to reach to ground

i wake up
still falling
i go to sleep
still falling

i sit in a train
-falling-
and suddenly a song makes me cry
(tears falling)

i lie to friends
tell them i'm doing okay
i do not tell i'm actually skydiving
without a parachute

the wind, a twirl of emotions
plays with me
lifts me up just enough
so i can keep on falling

and i still haven't reached the ground

i'm still kind of alife

and everything i do is part of that movement called falling

will i ever reach the end?
yes!
and it will not be a crash
i will be catched
my fall is not unnoticed
my pain is not unseen

my Catcher
is watching me
knew i would fall before i knew there was a tree
and i can keep on falling
because i'll fall in His hand

I look around
and i see you
but i'm not even
trying to connect

i have lost someone
did you too?
or didn't you have someone to loose to begin with?

i see your face, or your status
i wonder what is going on
but do i dare to ask you?

and if you try to
tell me your sorrows
would i listen?
would i dose of in my mind?

lonely people
i see you, but i don't
i hear your story like i hear background music
i cannot change your lonelyness

you see, i have lost someone
maybe you have too
but if i don't let you in
i will not lose you too

who would have known
a broken heart
was this hard
to carry?

who would have known
memories
could be this
heavy

who would have known
a heart
could be
screaming

who would have known
you
would let me
go?

I once told you if we would ever break up,
i would cry for at least 2 years

well, i don't know about that
but after 2,5 months, my tea still tastes salt
and my pillow is wet

but i know now
it's not about the crying
it's the bleeding
the bleeding inside

you should have just
broken my heart
left me dying
it would have been over by now

but you took a gap out of it
left it bleeding
left me screaming inside

do bleeding hearts dry?
will you one day be a forgotten scar?
and can you become
just another memory?

Love is but a dream
no, not all love, i'm no cynic
but our love

As a dream it's fading away
leaving memories that get more and more confusing
When it's over, you cannot see it clear

Like a dream it seems to have fit between the blink of an eye
though at the time, it was forever

as in a dream, it was perfect
you were perfect, i was just good at
overlooking errors until dawn

love is but a dream
and i beg the universe
if i can go back to sleep again
scream at my pillow to drown out reality
cause i don't want to be
awake
ever again

Go to sleep now
go to sleep
my angry boy

Go to sleep
forget how the world
treated you

Go to sleep now
don't let your anger
poison you

Go to sleep now
and dream
about forgiving

Go to sleep
put your head
on my lap
and sleep

And know
your girl
will always love you