Kid, don't fret yourself

Over the problems you have.

There's always a way out

A light

           at the end of the tunnel.

Don't worry yourself

Into oblivion

You'll be alright.

Kid

Always remember

The sun'll be out

In time.

Gliding above the surface

So calm and peaceful.

Yet underneath

Lies the unknown

Underneath lies turbulence

and uncertainty.

And if you decide

to jump in,

rather than ignore,

Know

that there's no coming back.

A new face

new name

new friend

and heartbeat quickens

deep breaths

shaky hands

sweaty palms

and heartbeat quickens

a quick hello

conversation follows

and heartbeat quickens

the question

and yes.

Heartbeat slows.

I have found

A person I can trust in you.

A person

so merciful

compassionate

tender.

Someone who will stand by me

As I would them.

Someone whose elegance

Far surpasses my own,

And with you I can find

Redemption

A blessing

Who compensates

For my own lack of grace.

I’m fine

I don’t need anything

Just leave me to myself

Just walk away

Just don’t return

I’m wrong

Please come back

I need all you can give

All your love and more

Everything you have

I need you

I admit it

I need nothing

I’m above this

Above you

I’m not

I need  you

and your love

and your help

Help me understand

Why do I do this?

Stormclouds move across my amber evening sky

Painting it shades of grey and pink and orange

As the wind blows through our window

It whistles a lonely, homesick call

As you walk through the room

Your voice is bittersweet to hear

Confusing to my heart

Tearing it apart

Chasing its tail

Because it doesn’t know what else to do

Sitting here, so trapped

Feeling as if each breath

Takes me further from freedom

Feeling that,

Each second is wasted

  That, at this moment

I should be somewhere else

Not here,

Far away.

But I remain,

And envy the passers-by

Below my window.