born in the artic snow
she chromed
her heart
in steel

flames could
not
touch that heart

always a half a step ahead
sure
a few stumbles
but never a fall

and moonlight is just
a heartache in disquise

till one day
leaning out a car window
a scar upon his cheek
and the luck of the draw

was the jack of hearts

and the queen of diamonds
had
never met
anyone
quite like

the jack

of hearts,

black-haired blue-eyed
her beauty inspired
stupid men
to commit foolish acts

and as he smiled
the queen of diamonds
thought she had

the jack of hearts,

blue sky shimmering
in her eyes

jack became
the brightness
of her day

and the jack of hearts
saw a flame
flickering in her eyes
that he had never seen
in any women's eyes
before ...
                
               act. 2

... a strange destiny
was unraveling
and one long poker hand
was over
and the snowflakes came
down like ashes
under the street light

and then
the jack of hearts
walked away

a pale spirit fleeing
a graveyard
into the wall of night

and the queen of diamonds
cried

the sea into sky

with eyes
like twilight
waiting

to eat away the day

She asked:
“Why so blue?”
When the room lights in an indigo hue
Amber liquid decanted
Poured in crystal clear glasses.
“Why so pale?”
I replied.

Gentle knocker at the window
Tenebrous limbs shyly tremble
At the gust of Gaia’s impatient sighs
As the sky’s spotlight lights the way
For nocturnal arboreal spies.

I guess when ruby red lips
Stain the glass as we sip
Spirits always haunting us,
That I’m prone to wondering
How I can be her knight cap.

She asked:
“Aren’t you gonna kiss me?”
Signals fired like a flare,
Synapses lit aflame I’m rushing with adrenaline
As I feel her satin fabric twisted in my palms
Gripped to pull her into me like a fleece blanket,
We embrace like joined twins
And lip lock in a flurried fury.
“Like this?”
I replied.

In love with imperfect,
Pure bliss in your candor
Won’t you let me in?
Spread your pedals wide,
Stride after stride
Until the room paints in white
And the sun blinds our shame
To freshen our gaze,
And restart our game

. Canto I: The Movement .

Sing, O depths, of the sundered and stitched—
of lovers who fled the lattice of men.
They bore no dowry but discord and blaze,
cast off from the courts of the land-born kin.

She rose from a brine-locked temple,
crowned in eelbones and saltglass,
her voice a harpoon through silence.
He came from a pyre of failed gods,
drunk on the ash of forgotten cities,
carrying a heart wrapped in nettle and wire.

They met in the undertow—
not with grace, but with rupture.
He called her flame in the throat of the sea,
she named him the reef that bleeds stars.

They kissed in the eye of a cyclone,
fed each other names never spoken twice,
and shackled themselves in sinew and storm.

Let it be known: they did not set sail.
They were flung—howling—from the world’s wound.


. Canto II: The Recognition .

Seven moons passed through their lungs
before they saw.

Not eyes—not bodies—
but the myths coiled inside each other’s ribs.

She bore a temple in her stomach
where drowned saints wept for the living.
He kept a cemetery behind his tongue
for all the truths he’d butchered with silence.

They laid bare their reliquaries,
cracked open their chests
like oysters of ruin—
and still, they reached.

No mercy. No disguise.
Only pulse and plague.
She screamed her mother’s curses into his jaw.
He fed her the names of storms he never wept for.

Still—
they danced.
Still—
they sank.
Not from weight,
but from knowing.

And the sea, jealous of such raw mirror,
split its throat open,
so even Poseidon would forget peace.


. Canto III: The Resolution .

They did not break.
They were not mended.
They blurred,
like blood in tide,
like prayer in fog.

The sea claimed their names,
then forgot them—
but the bones remembered.

Now coral grows from their vows.
Now whales dream their sighs.

She became the thrum beneath shipwrecks,
the voice in a sailor’s last breath.
He became the itch in the compass,
the pull toward madness at dusk.

If you listen—
truly listen—
you may still hear it:
a hymn of wire, salt, and marrow,
carried on a wave older than time.

Not warning.
Not lament.
But tribute.

To the wire-bound lovers—
to the myth that dared to bleed
and called it sacred.

Are we but pawns on a chessboard
That God just moves about haphazardly?
Or are we placed strategically;
And through God’s plans can claim: “Checkmate!”

A woman, who’s really tired,
Hasn’t even go to bed.
It’s past midnight and all over again.
Her bed’s still fully made.

A woman, who’s really tired,
Forgot what sleep is.
She spent herself but stably accepted
Her Destiny’s painful decrees.

A woman, who’s really tired,
Wants simply and plainly to be.
She stopped laughing long ago.
She rarer wants to speak.

A woman, who’s really tired
Of blaming herself for breathe,
A woman, who’s still feeling,
Has simply the right to live!

The call to Oblivion
gets harder to resist
A desire to be numb
so obviously persists

«Fazañas imposibles obré con esta daga,
al favor de la noche y en trágicos suburbios,
una vez que fui pícaro...
Recuerdo -como en turbios
sonambulismos donde una luz naufraga-
que fui taimado pícaro: Don Lope de Aguinaga!

»Locas andanzas venusinas!
Francachelas en que la sangre dialoga
con el vino, después de heroicas tremolinas!
Raptos de adustas damas... gentucilla de toga!
Raptos de las amantes de alto Marqués o Doga...!
De nobles y pecheras, monjas y bailarinas!

»Las noches de bureo por timbas y tabernas,
y por tabucos, bodegones y hostales,
a caza de los bienes y a caza de los males:
de los magníficos pecados capitales...
sin poner mientes en las cosas eternas!

»Fazañas imposibles obré con mis puñales
en los juegos de quínola y en los juegos de dados,
y en los sañudos desafíos azarosos
con turbas de judíos astrosos
y con mendigos y frailes y soldados!

»Fazañas imposibles obré con esta daga!
Yo fui taimado pícaro: Don Lope de Aguinaga!»

Why don't the heart and mind
speak the same language?

Is it because-

the mind matures
and
the heart remains a child?

These halls seem somewhat hollow
A certain sense of sorrow
Now graces ancient stone.
Replacing familiar faces
With defaced family paintings
And cold ancestral bones.
Thrones thrown upon a pyre.
Fate becomes the folly
Tomorrow the unknown,
The brows of time are furrowed
Past spent, lost, or borrowed
Flowers forever bloom alone.
Rats, the last lords of ruin
Rule cruel shadows from the walls.
Twilight sighs at daylight's rise
All seems dark till darkness falls.

when my heart is done aching
the pain moves to my head
the feelings swarm to my mind
because simmering in my heart
does them no good
at least when they make my head ache
they are allowed to boil over
and be released all at once
captured in headache tears
that once were heartache feelings

I told the stars my pain, but they blinked in disbelief
As if the sky could not conceive a suffering so far beneath
Still their presence offerd a quiet relief

I'll gladly oblige the request you have
As I run my hands through your hair and drive you mad.

Look into my eyes, you see me smile, I'll take my time, we may be here for a while.

Gentle I'll be or as hard as you like
The feel of your skin, it gives me life.

The warmth of your body, my breathe in your ear
Do not fret, you have nothing to fear.

Not today.

Cracks on my head
have appeared boldly—
scorching heat,
the culprit, smiles.

Wounds fester
and age with time.

Taunting sleep haunts along,
derailing any grip on reality.

Hopeless I am,
breathless and fallen.

What kind of love,
I reach for you—
Do I?
hays...

I'm sipping coffee,
yes, to stay awake,
but sleep steals in—
can you guess?

I bite on chocolate
to spark some fire,
but still,
I drift again—
what kind of life is this?

It’s like saying,
“I don’t like you,”
but the truth
is wrapped in silence,
sealed beneath this guarded chest.

So tell me—
What is this?

I wake up crying
Dying inside
Tell my parents that i'm ok
But i'm really not
And I hate it when they push further
Because they know that I am lying
But I need them to push me to keep me alive
And I hate the pain of the knife against my skin
But I love the punishment for my sins
I don't think that I can do this anymore
*It hurts too much to try

Problems will come
Just like the Rains.
Instead of  anticipating
For the Rains to Stop.
Just Get an Umbrella
And Simply Open it.

And within her silent breathe,
I held my head to her heart,
and no words could ever be said
as the silence ripped me apart......
when the thumping's no silent roaring
RIP my beautiful mother.

I don’t want dead flowers
on my grave or my name
in an obituary column to
say that I died peacefully

Tell it as it was, he ended
up just as rebellious as he
lived a Paddystinian on his
deathbed saying **** the J

Plaisir, bourreau des cœurs, vendeur juré des âmes,
Ah ! trop longtemps tu pris le masque de l'amour
Au vestiaire impur des romans et des drames !

Voyageant sous son nom et suivi par ta cour
De Lovelaces fous et de Phèdres navrées,
Plaisir, tyran cruel, voici venir ton tour !

Ah ! trop longtemps tu fis, dans tes mornes Caprées,
Des corps humains liés à tes rouges poteaux
De blancs Saint-Sébastiens pleins de flèches dorées ;

Et depuis trop longtemps, roulé dans tes manteaux,
Tu te glisses le soir dans les tavernes saoules,
Où tu mets les hoquets et les coups de couteaux.

Renard caché qui mord le ventre obscur des foules,
N'es-tu pas las d'errer épié dans tes nuits
Par le crime dans l'ombre horrible où tu te coules ?

Père des sommeils lourds et des mornes ennuis,
N'es-tu pas las de boire au fond des yeux la vie,
Comme un soleil brutal boit l'ombre dans un puits ?

- Tout ce qui vient de Dieu, tout ce qui fait envie :
La grâce des fronts purs, la force des lutteurs,
L'intelligence, lampe à Dieu même ravie,

Jusqu'à la voix qui vibre au gosier des chanteurs,
Jusqu'au trésor de pleurs qui tremble au cœur des femmes,
Tu fais passer sur tout tes souffles destructeurs.

Tu donnes jusqu'au goût des souffrances infâmes,
Et les petits enfants, qui baissent leurs cils noirs,
Pâlissent au passage effrayant de tes flammes.

Tu glanes des savants aux plis de tes peignoirs,
Et tu domptes le cœur des rudes capitaines,
Rien qu'avec le parfum que jettent tes mouchoirs.

Tu traites les vertus d'atroces puritaines,
Mais leur cœur réfléchit, comme un lac de cristal,
La force et la douceur des étoiles hautaines.

Cependant, dur geôlier dont le poignard brutal
Ne se laisse fléchir par les cris de personne,
Tu peuples la prison autant que l'hôpital.

Tu te dis bon vivant, tu t'assieds sur la tonne,
Ton verre dans la main, tu chantes, et pourtant
Aux hideurs que tu fais la science s'étonne.

Tu couves tous les fruits d'un air inquiétant ;
Ton appétit funèbre engloutirait le monde,
Pourvoyeur de la mort, qui n'est jamais content.

Que t'importe ! Tu ris sous ta perruque blonde,
Ou bien tu vas prêcher la modération,
Rhéteur païen, leurré par ta propre faconde.

Fils lugubre de l'homme, et sa punition,
Ennemi de l'amour, tu rêves la conquête
De sa gloire, et maudis sa noble passion...

Mais l'amour triomphant met le pied sur ta tête !

You placed that long,
humming conduit in me
and I jolted, a surge in the
dam, my limbs stuttering
like loose wires, no rhythm,
no balance —just current.

My body answered—  
before I did.

Beneath the surface of our giving,
A quiet echo, always living.
The hand extended, the gift bestowed,
Holds traces of what the heart is owed.

In every act of kindness shown,
A seed of self is always sown.
A smile exchanged, a burden shared,
The giver leaves their soul ensnared.

Transaction speaks in whispers faint,
Not loud enough to mar the saint.
Yet woven in the tapestry,
Is the thread of reciprocity.

Evolution’s pen, so deftly writ,
Has carved the rules; we benefit.
To give is to connect, survive,
To keep the fire of bonds alive.

But purest light, we chase, we yearn,
For altruism that won’t return.
A gift devoid of self, of gain,
A spotless deed, untouched by stain.

And here, the fallacy takes form,
A standard raised against the norm.
To cast aside what’s real, profound,
For lofty heights that can’t be found.

For in the real, the flawed, the small,
Lies beauty woven through it all.
A kindness fraught with give and take
Still soothes the wounds that living makes.

Should we dismiss imperfect grace,
Because it wears a human face?
Or hold it close, and see it whole,
A blend of heart, and mind, and soul.

The saintly act, the selfish cheer,
Are not as distant as they appear.
For even joy in giving free
Forms part of our humanity.

So let us honor deeds once spurned,
Where subtle trades of trust are earned.
And measure worth by what is done,
Not by the motives of the one.

For if perfection is the goal,
We’ll find no virtue in the soul.
Yet in the flawed, the fractured light,
Shines something real, and something right.

Reflection
Altruism is no saint’s domain,
But the hand that lifts through joy or pain.
A mirror held to humankind,
Revealing heart, and what’s behind.

Listen up,
You’ve been dancing in circles,
thinking you can outrun your own shadow.
But the sun always moves.
And shadows?
They follow.

You patch the cracks,
stack lies on lies like brittle bones,
but every cover you throw
just sinks you deeper.

You wear your little masks,
build fake versions of yourself,
hoping if you play enough parts,
nobody’ll see what’s rotting underneath.
But we see.
Everyone sees.
That theater doesn't scare anyone,
and it sure as hell doesn't scare justice.
Truth won't lose patience.
It doesn't blink.
It waits.

You write your pretty verses,
spit out poems like they’re some kind of shield,
like art can outrun consequence.
Your words are feathers in a hurricane.
They won’t cover the hurt,
They won’t erase the stain.

And don’t forget —
it’s never the sin that buries a man.
It’s the weight of hiding it.