Many openings and a lot of close encounters
Denied offers and spared hours
Countless compliments on the personality and face
Sometimes with promises, I slip away without a trace

It seems that I keep my heart behind rod iron doors
So love and promises cannot be forced
I try and try until trying isn't enough
So I accept the fact and keep on acting tough

When dealing with love, only time can tell
Hopefully someday I can tell the story of the day I fell
Young and blessed with a passion filled soul
I decided that "You can't love until you love yourself" is getting old

I love myself, I truly do
It took a couple of years to learn how to
So if I love what lies within
Why can't I love? Where do I even begin?

I love my friends, family, Nirvana, sunflowers, tattoos, books, writing, and tea
If that's not love, I don't know what can be
I'm an ignorant fool who's blind to love
I've tried to see. I went beyond and above.

Some call me a heart breaker, a heartless savage even
But honestly, I'm a walking bag of organs who doesn't know where to begin
I carry with me a stone in a rod iron cage
But I'm full of passion and full of rage

I'm too ignorant to love and too careless to care
But I'm a writer and here's what I dare
Don't follow my footsteps and find a passionate guy
For when a writer falls in love with you,
you'll never die.

My insanity lies in your hands.
Every move you make are my commands.
You stole away the apple of my eye.
Leading me on to every bad guy.
Leaving me to fend for myself.
Then like a toy, putting me back on the shelf.

My stone cold soul lies in your hands.
Every thought creates a new demand.
I always end up falling for your tricks and schemes.
This why no person is what they seem.

My poison drenched heart fills your hands.
With every trembling beat comes a wretched new plan.
Drizzled in ink, it leaks out sorrow.
Sorrow that fills my veins and prepares me for tomorrow.

I have a secret
but who wants to know?
A hopeless dreamer
with hope as thick as snow
They are all lies my dear
everything you thought was true
Keep your thoughts and feelings hidden, beautiful
because who wants to hear from you?

You are a mistake
But you stole our hearts, aye?
Correction. You're life is the only thing we want you to take
sit and breath in your wonderland fumes
go ahead and chug your forgetful liquids
all we have is an useless creature in doom.

Dream on Dreamer
maybe tomorrow will be better
maybe all those thoughts will leave me
and someday with a pitiful smile that no one knew existed
I'll whisper without a shadow of the doubt
"Here's the secret. I'm twisted."

I'm terribly confused and lost my sense of sight
It's been forever since I've seen the day light
I'm locked inside your chamber, your soul
I'm locked inside a place unknown
I carry guilt. I carry blame
I dragged around your love like a ball and chain
I wore chains engraved with promises
While surrendering to your sweet darkness
Whispers like poison run through my head
Memories like acid in my blood spread
I got to get out of this place
but I still find myself sane in your sweet embrace
Your arms are like a rope hugging my neck
******* the life out of me with no respect
Still I find myself staying with your chamber of souls within
Because my flawless darling, I'm addicted to your lovely sin.

For the sake of society we choose to
Blend In.
We choose to fall for judgement and unnecessary sin.
We dedicate our lives to pleasing the eager souls
Who captivate and change the personalities they stole.
We smile and skip in an evil trance
Never looking back at the memories and focusing on the beautiful flaws we can enhance.

The society is our sculptor and we are the clay with tiny whispers we promise everyday
I'll Change My Ways.
They paint on us a captivating yet sorrowful grin
Where a depressing frown had once been.
The thoughts of being independent lurk in our mistreated minds
Convinced those are tricks we continue on being blind.
We never come up with the idea of being unique
because now-a-days popularity it what we seek.

Forget the times when liberty ruled
Because independence and freedom are for fools.
For now we stand in a controlling nation
stealing every soul that is thrown out for starvation.
Together as a nation we stand with
Indifference, Denial, and The Pursuit of Despair.