This little kid and I were talking the other day...

Look at my knees! They're all bruised because I fall a lot!
Ouch, that must hurt.
A little. Do you have any bruises?
Oh yes. I have a really big one somewhere.

He looks down at my knees, but sees nothing. Then he looks at my arms, and sees nothing either.

What? I don't see any. Where is it?
Here.

With my index finger, I point at my heart.

Your heart? How can you have a bruise in your heart? I don't get it.
**You will when you fall in love, kid.

He already forgot me
It's time I do the same

I know I'm really late,
But I love you anyway.

At the end of the night
He held my hands
He looked deep into my eyes
And outside his car under the moonlight

He said, "I love you."

I was shocked, surprised even
I had no words, I was speechless
He was a person I did not want to lose
But my heart began to melt, because as I looked down at my shoes

I realized I couldn't say those three words back

I miss not caring about what the world thought of me
Never mattered who saw, I always did what made me happy
Now everyone judges who you are
But sometimes society pushes it too far

I miss being so joyful and full of cheer
I was happy, even if bedtime was near
Now everyone just knows how to stress and worry
There's no time for leisure 'cause we're all in such a hurry

Back then people used to play with dolls and such
Now people play with hearts and see sad faces too much

Oh, I miss being so carefree
Never mattered what the world thought of me
I was always so happy

But then you're thrown into this cruel place
Funny yet sad how you think this was something you'd never face
I remember how I used to say "I want to be older" all the time
And now that I grew up, I think, *Man, how wrong was I...

Your eyes, your smile, everything about you,
my attention it seized

But somehow this love that was immense
Slowly got less and less intense

This love for you has now deceased
Finally from a beautiful curse I have been released.

I got bruises and black eyes
Running into walls, trying to find you

But I guess love really is blind after all.

Please don't hug me
Please don't make me laugh
Please don't give me that smile

Don't you see I'll get even more attached to you, when I'm trying to let go ?

All I want to do is push you away from me, very far

But instead I'm pulling you back, why do you make it so hard?

I remember the day when you were sitting on one end of the couch and I was sitting on the other one.

You motioned me to come and give you a hug
So I stood up and wrapped my arms around you while you were sitting

In that moment you pulled me down intentionally so I was there on the couch with you.

We stayed like that for a few minutes, cuddling....

And in that moment I realized that nothing could ever make me feel like I was home than being held in your arms.

"I'm irresistible," he says jokingly.
"You know you want me."

*Oh, if you knew...

I love you so much...

No I don't need you.

Um, I think you do...

No because I don't love him.

Hmm, I think you're lying.

No I'm right. I don't want him, I don't need him, and I don't love him.

Sure, whatever you say...

Can a boy's face be described as beautiful?

Because that's all I think about when I see him.

They said time will heal, time will cure you
I've been deeply hurt; months, even years won't do

I have a feeling that this pain will last a lifetime...
I'll just have to learn to live with it,
Learn to live with this curse that will forever within me lie

"You love me so much, huh?" He says jokingly.

You're not far off, I think.

I'm afraid of making mistake, I'm afraid of saying something wrong
So that's why I don't talk whenever you're around.
But at the same time, if I don't ever talk to you or tell you how I feel,
Isn't that making a mistake too?

Sometimes I get so **** nervous when I'm with you, it looks like I've forgotten the English language.

I am in the dark abyss of depression where no ray of hope could reach.

Nothing is good. Everything's bad; there nothing but darkness.

*Then why does the moon and stars exist?

So what if one day went awry?
Many more suns will rise
Many more moons will shine...

I saw him telling jokes and making people laugh
His kindness couldn't be captured by any photograph
His happiness was so big, anyone was able to see
No one knew how truly marvelous he was, except me

His stare provides such warmth, his eyes are filled with care
The best feauture on him is that smile he daily wears
And now instead of feeling my heart beating out of my chest
I feel warm all over; all my love in him I'd invest

Lonely is the night
But my head very occupied
The thoughts of you are running through my mind
It's making my heart beat faster, making me feel alive

I waited for you to come.
I did, with a smile on my face when the thought of the sight of you came into mind.
Happiness shone over me like the sun  shines over the earh.
I waited
And waited...


*But you never came.

When you look at me, you take my breath away

When you flash me a smile, you take my breath away

When you talk to me, you take my breath away

Even just your very presence is enough to take my breath away

So many "what ifs" left unanswered
That they start to **** me slowly inside

Why do we spend our time thinking of those who won't even take a second to think about us?

Why do waste all our love on people who won't even give us the smallest piece of their hearts?

Why do we even have the slightest hope in them?

Why do we even think that they're worth missing?

Oh,
   
         how                
        
                     I'm                                        ­             
                  
                              fa­lling                                  
  
                                             for                        
                                         ­               
                                                 ­     you

Everyone sees jealousy as a bad thing...

I think it's kinda nice that someone really wants to spend with you and only you.

Oh, just look at me
So sad and fragile and weak
From not being able to have a chance with you
But now it's like I can see through...

All the beauty I thought you were supposed to be
Has turned into something too hideous for me to see
I can finally let go of this weight that's been hanging over me

The light from my eyes fading away
My throat burns as I try to get air

But I know that breathing will keep me alive, and I'll be forced to keep living in this broken world we call life

So I feel the pressure of the cord around my neck closing the connection to life, and the opening of the path to the unknown;

And unknown life where things may be better...

When you fall friends will be there to catch you in midair
Or maybe they'll just play and mess with your hair
But sometimes they're not what they appear to be at first
Then eventually the truth will burst
They become masters at deceiving
At the end you they will be leaving
You realize that you they have been controlling
The lies now slowly come out crawling
You'll see that they've been playing with you all along even you may not believe it's true
But never trust them
Never judge them
Because the moment you do
They'll be backstabbing you